Wednesday, May 29, 2002
I was very unsuccessful at installing my kit by myself with my limited amount of tools and strength. I couldn't even break the torque on the freakin' bolts on my wheels. I'm a weakling. For fear that my side skirts would fall off on the freeway or something, I just took them off. I left the front lip on though because that's on securely. My car looks like a snow plow though. Saturday night I have a charity party for work to go to, so I guess I'll have to head down to San Diego on Sunday real quick to have my dad or brother help my inept ass. Guhh.. I know exactly what my dad is gonna say.. "I told you so."
_end session @ 08:50 PM PST
because I was fighting with my car all night. I took a shower last night and this morning and I still cannot get the grease out from underneath my fingernails. To top if off, I have a bruise on my left knee the size of a baseball and I have no clue where I got it from. I noticed it this morning in the shower, and of course it didn't start hurting until I realized it was there. It looks really, really, really gross.
Anyway poor Lakers. Oh well, I caught the tail end of it and at least it wasn't a blow out. Even if the Kings win this series I won't be upset. They do have the best record in the regular season, I guess they deserve it. :p But I still want the Lakers to win of course!
Back to work I go.
_end session @ 10:38 AM PST
Saturday, May 25, 2002
Well I'm back in San Diego for the long weekend. I need time away from my usual environment. The long drive here was useful as well. Time to relax, contemplate and cry a little bit to myself while still watching the road. There was a point where my eyes got flooded and I could barely see though. It's ok. This will all end very soon. And I cannot wait for that day to come.
Have you ever been in love with someone? That person that makes you think... yes, he/she is definitely the one, and you thought you were in love before but this time it's real. I think we've all felt that way at a certain point in life right? I know I did. I loved him. The thought of us ever breaking up had never, ever entered our minds. You can imagine how it turned both our worlds upside down when we did in fact break up. We spent a few months second guessing ourselves. Is it true? Is this really, really what we want to do? I guess the bad outnumbered the good and love failed to win yet again. I knew I loved him, but I also know that he never really loved me for the right reasons.
I am going outside to work on my car now and steal some of my dad's tools. Toodles.
_end session @ 11:31 AM PST
Friday, May 24, 2002
My wheels haven't arrived yet. Good fucking lawd. Why lie to me and say it's going to be in at so and so time when you know very well that you're gonna have to pull another lie out of your ass to save you when I call and ask where it is?
_end session @ 02:25 PM PST
Thursday, May 23, 2002
It's only Thursday? You've gotta be kidding me. It feels like 3 days have passed already since I complained about it only being Wednesday. And it's only 4PM? Geezus, I'd give anything for it to be 6PM right now.
I should be getting my stuff tomorrow. Thank freakin' goodness. I've waited almost three weeks for my kit to be painted. That's ridiculous. It's four thin pieces of plastic. I'm not going back to that shop again. My wheels should also arrive at the shop tomorrow. I've got a busy day tomorrow running around using my poor car as a shipping truck again. I hope my new wheels don't rub too bad considering I will be driving to San Diego with them. Guhhh.
I've got to pee really bad. But I'll hold it.
Damnit, I can't hold it. Bye.
_end session @ 04:00 PM PST
Wednesday, May 22, 2002
It's only Wednesday? Damnit. This week is like the week that wouldn't end.
_end session @ 11:35 PM PST
Tuesday, May 21, 2002
All that money I spent yesterday, was supposed to get the stuff today but it's all being delayed until Friday. *cries* Oh well.
_end session @ 03:15 PM PST
Monday, May 20, 2002
I spend way too much money!!!! On my stupid car. $2444.40 alone today. Another $500 tomorrow (to pay for the rest of something).
_end session @ 11:45 PM PST
GUHHHHHH. I got a letter from Adelphia today saying I owed them $1000 for unreturned equipment (my old modem and cable box). FUCK, FUCK, FUCK! I have the fucking stuff sitting in the back of my car but I have no fucking time to take it there. Do you think they'll nix the charges if I bring it now? I HOPE SO!!
_end session @ 09:09 PM PST
Sunday, May 19, 2002
for pancakes and eggs.
_end session @ 10:47 AM PST
Saturday, May 18, 2002
My next door neighbor has some sort of small dog that barks incessantly throughout the night and day. Being a small dog, the bark is a high pitched yelp that pierces my ear drums. I can't even record my freekin voice mail and answering machine greeting without that fucking dog barking in the background.
We had a new garage door put in today. We had one of those big wooden old ones that if you're not parked correctly will close right on your car's hood. My mom did that to my Civic once. Now we have a pretty roll up one with cute little windows. Geez, these things came out like in 1990 and we're just now getting with the program.
After the dude was done installing the garage door I gave my car a well deserved bath. I cringed everytime I saw the dirt on it because I knew my car was in pain. I should get my kit this week, HOPEFULLY. I dropped the damn thing off almost two weeks ago, I called them a week later asking what the status was. He says "Oh, umm, our spray booth broke down so we'll probably get to paint it this weekend"... WTF? They wait a week to tell me that they haven't done jack shit? And they didn't even call me, I had to call them. If they weren't painting it for so damn cheap (cousin's hookup) I'd take my business elsewhere.
Gotta go watch the rest of the Laker game now.
_end session @ 06:01 PM PST
Friday, May 17, 2002
...and bought some rims today. I'm not going to post them yet, I want to wait until both my kit and rims are ready and installed. Maybe, I don't even know if I'll post pics of my car anymore. So many psychos on the internet, I am not surprised if an internet psycho had anything to do with my previous car being stolen. After this is done, and maaayyyybbbee some racing seats and a cf hood, I will be done with my exterior. Those items will come later on though.
Anyway, that is all for tonight.
_end session @ 08:39 PM PST
Thursday, May 16, 2002
I am probably one of the few people in the world who is really really grateful to have her own private garage and driveway. See, while living in apartments you don't get that luxury. Well, when I lived in a townhouse I had a private garage but no driveway. Anyway, my point is, I am a person who frequently works on her car. I do everything from oil changes, to installations on my car, and a driveway/garage is a necessity for those things. Tonight I am going to Walmart to buy carwash supplies and give my car a bath. I left it sitting for 3 days in front of a lawn with a sprinkler system when I went up to San Jose. It's starting to look like a leopard. My car has also acted as a U-Haul during my move so it's quite dirty inside. I used to take it to this car wash down the street from my office but they leave a nasty funk inside my car cuz they've been sweating all day.
My favorite movie Forrest Gump was on last night, so I didn't spend much time online. The acoustics are awesome in my house though, so the sound of my sister banging away on my keyboard on AOL echoed throughout the house. 9PM rolled around and she made me turn it to the WB network to watch Felicity. I never watch these shows, hell I don't watch TV shows period, but I agreed to change it anyway. The girl, Julie (Amy Jo Johnson) looks EXACTLY like my boss's girlfriend Trish. I mean, exactly. Same hair, same twig figure, same face. This paragraph, much like the first one, has no relevance whatsoever to anything.
I shall shut up now.
_end session @ 01:31 PM PST
Tuesday, May 14, 2002
I'm feeling a little better tonight. Not so irritable and more calm. Lakers are losing 39-45 though. Guh. Oh well, it's only an elimination game for the Spurs but I'd love for the Lakers to close them out at home tonight.
I bought a bunch of stuff at TowerRecords.com with my gift card. How sad, there is a brand new Tower RIGHT across the street from my office, yet I still find it more convenient to shop for stuff online. I dunno, it's such a busy intersection that I don't like to cross (as a pedestrian) unless I have to. Plus I am a lazy bastard.
It feels odd saying this, but I miss having a boyfriend. Just someone to hang out at my place, or go with me to pick up parts for my car, or just to say "hi" and "i love you" everyday to.
That is all. Goodnight.
_end session @ 09:21 PM PST
Caramel M&Ms are great.
_end session @ 04:07 PM PST
Monday, May 13, 2002
I feel a heavy sack of emotion on my chest. I can't quite put my finger on it, and I cannot shake it off. First of all the weather changed from quite chilly to very hot. I already feel like I'm coming down with some sort of cold and this weather will make it worse. Second, work is biting me in the ass. It does that every once in a while. I'll love my job for a few months, then for a week I'll hate it. Today was day 1 of hating it. Third, I've got bills up the wazoo that I am too fucking lazy to sort out, so I never really know how much money I've got in the bank. Laziness and procrastination will be the death of me. Fourth, I gave up on someone who I thought was a friend. Now that is the worst feeling in the world (well, one of them), being let down yet again by someone you trust and need in your life. Ah well, c'est la vie. I'm slowly but surely moving on, you can count on that.
It is never too early to think about what your life is going to be like 30 years from now. What am I going to do? Who am I going to be? Where am I going to be? I'm twenty years old but I have already accomplished quite a bit. Not to toot my own horn or anything, but I've grown up pretty damn fast. I have a career, a house, a car and a credit card. Heh. I'll be suffering from my mid-life crisis when I'm 22. Want to bet on that?
Last night I was so frustrated I wanted to cry to let it out. But I was too exhausted to do anything but lay down and stare at the wall. Maybe I'll do my crying tonight. Or when I wake up in the morning. It's bound to come out sooner or later, I can feel myself start to tear up every so often when I think about stupid shit that is stressing me out. But mostly when I think about him.
I am going to go wallow in self pity now. Night.
_end session @ 09:29 PM PST
It's hot and humid here. But what else do you expect when you live in the fuckin valley.
I worked on a new layout for about 5 minutes before trashing it.
I think I am going to veg out in front of our new wide screen tv downstairs where it's a lot cooler.
Could this entry be anymore random?
_end session @ 07:23 PM PST
Since I started at this job, I have never had a case of the Mondays until today. I am extremely irritable today and I am acting like a complete bitch to everyone. It just makes me so mad that the second I walk through the door, someone comes running up to me with some crisis. Today I didn't even get to fucking sit down in my fucking chair until I fixed 3 fucking crises.
_end session @ 10:49 AM PST
I'm home from my long weekend road trip. I am also very irritated at the moment. I will explain more tomorrow because right now I'm so tired. BUT GUHHHHH I'm so mad I could cry.
_end session @ 12:25 AM PST
Thursday, May 9, 2002
...looking for an envelope with $300 cash, my paycheck, and a couple other miscellaneous checks in it. I was sweating bullets because I could not find it anywhere. I looked everywhere twice and finally found it in one of the boxes I stuffed all my old paperwork in. *whew* I was seriously about to shit my pants.
Anyway, while I was on a man hunt for my money, I found my old diary that I always find and lose every couple years. Each time I find it I read it from beginning to end and laugh harder everytime. Oh man, I was such a fucking dork! Every other word was "gosh" and "gee whiz" or "he's so fine" or "I'm so boy crazy." I think the first entry was in June of 1994 and lasted maybe 2 years. I want to burn it for fear that someone will find it one day. Guhh that is so embarrassing.
I have the day off tomorrow. Woopie.
I'll catch y'all on Sunday night when I get home from the Bay area.
_end session @ 07:03 PM PST
Tuesday, May 7, 2002
Alright, alright, last entry tonight I promise!
Anyway, we did a major remodel on this new house we bought because, well, it was a rather cheesy interior and we're snotty elitists who only want the best.
Here is a before picture:
And an after shot of the same area:
My aforementioned ghetto computer area:
My room part 1:
My room part 2:
My room is olive green, it just looks puke green in the pictures because of the way the camera shot the photo. Also, I have that blue sheet scotch taped to my window because I don't want to nail it to the wall, and I don't have blinds yet. Pardon my ghettoness!
Anyway, I'll have more photos up later!
_end session @ 11:56 PM PST
Err, well not exactly in Santa Cruz but I am alone here in Los Angeles. Actually I take that back, I'm not home alone for once. Gahh forget the title!!
I finally have my cable modem hooked up at my new house. The good thing though, is that while I did not have it, I didn't miss it at all. (I only missed you know who you are.) I look extremely ghettooeeee though because I have no computer chair, there's still boxes all around me, and I'm sitting on my sister's "Body By Jake Ab Rocker" thingamajigg, which is very low so my chin right about comes up to the edge of the desk. I don't think many of my neighbors have a cable modem cuz my connection is super fast dewd!! I've been downloading songs at 40+kbps all night long compared to the 15-20 I used to get on my cable modem at my apartment. And shoosh if you have one of those T1 crappamathingers that download twice as fast as my 40. Poo on you!
Geez, when did I start blogging like an 8 year old?
I have a habit of typing something out, and then realizing how extremely lame and boring it is, so I delete it. I wrote out a whole paragraph about my trip this weekend but deleted it cuz it sucked! No one wants to read this shit!
Uhh.... goodnight.
_end session @ 11:17 PM PST
But I miss you, and I've been thinking about you a lot lately in many ways that I shouldn't be. I hope this is not weird for you. Hell, what am I saying? It's weird for me. You're with her, and the little one, and the little one on the way. It's so wrong of me to even think of this. But... sometimes I can't help myself. Hope to talk to you soon :o)
_end session @ 07:52 PM PST
Monday, May 6, 2002
Hahaha damnit! I didn't renew phayze1.com in time. It is now expired and no longer available to me :( *sniff* Well there goes that!
_end session @ 10:36 AM PST
I don't know what is more paintstaking. Packing or unpacking. I suppose if you took the time to actually pack in an organized manner, unpacking wouldn't be so bad. Instead, I was pressed for time and stuff lots of crap in various boxes. I even labeled the boxes "Lots of Misc. Crap."
Let's start off on Saturday. Saturday morning the movers came, yet again, to help move the furniture from the garage into the house and bedrooms. I left around 1:30 to head out to Huntington Beach for this gathering my friends and I organized. It was a freakin' huge turnout, I'd say roughly 90+ cars showed up. And even after that many cars, there was still ample parking. Grreat! I left early, around 5PM so I could resume unpacking.
I spent most of Sunday afternoon unpacking. I gave up around 11PM and tried to sleep. No luck. I had to park my car on the driveway, and I kept having dreams that my car was either stolen or broken into. It was a toss'n'turn type of night. To top it off, I don't have window blinds yet, so that also made it hard to sleep..... staring out the window into darkness freaks me out.
Good thing is though, that I thought I'd have to wake up at the butt crack of dawn in order to beat traffic to make it down to work. See, I don't have the luxury of living 1.7 miles away from work anymore. I must take the freeway or else I will be stuck on side streets forever. Luckily the traffic from my area to my work is not bad AT ALL so I got to work 20 minutes early. The traffic starts to back up as soon as my exit comes up, what luck! :o)
Anywhoo, that will be all for today. Cable guy is coming tomorrow to install my cable modem. Yippee.
_end session @ 10:29 AM PST
Thursday, May 2, 2002
I am blogging today at work (which I never do anymore) because I promised Aaron I would. :p So this entry is dedicated to you. *muah*
Anyway, we had to sleep at a relative's house again last night because our frickin' frackin' house is not done yet. The contractor said they would be finished today, so hopefully I'll be able to sleep on my own bed tonight. At least I didn't have to go to work in my pajamas again.
What else... what else... what else... damn, nothing else to write about so I guess I'll go now! Bye!
_end session @ 03:19 PM PST