May 2004

MAY 27, 2004 :: 11:59PM

Week in review. Jammin' to traffic on the 405... feelin' sleepy.

It's not the end of the week yet, but tomorrow is the Friday before a long weekend; it might as well be a holiday. We had "free Friday" lunch today [Fudgepackers Fuddruckers], a policy I created, giving us lunch on the company on the last Friday of every month. It also served as a welcome lunch for our new Office Assistant. Boy, did she get initiated into our freaky little group today. Seems like she'll fit in with us and she's doing great so far, so I'm pleased with our decision. New computer equipment in the office = Mae bombarded with eighty-seven thousand questions by each co-worker about how to do this and that and that and this. Luckily our IT people have been on-call for us. We should finally be able to get rid of gawd-forsaken AOL tomorrow and start using a real email system. That makes Mae a happy camper. And a happy-camping Mae benefits us all. I finally spoke to Rob's sister on Monday or Tuesday, I forget. He was still in a coma and kind of getting worse. He developed pneumonia and a temperature of 105. He can't breathe on his own... I asked if they expected a full recovery, but she didn't know. The doctors haven't said anything, and the family is also afraid to ask. I gave her my email address to keep me updated [the time difference makes it hard], but doh, the server migration thingie has our email down right now. But if anything critical happened, she'd call me anyway. Spending the long weekend with my parents. I need to get out of this place for a few days. I wish I could take off longer but you know how it goes. No internet, no computers, no work, no boys, nada!! Just lots of yummy messican food, and fresh rubber on my rims. Yeh, I get to drop 6 bills on tires this weekend. Hooray. What a crappy week-in-review this is. I'm not even going in chronological order. Now I'm going to talk about this past weekend. I watched "Honey" starring Jessica Alba. Then I regretted it. She didn't pull off the from-the-hood role too well. And Lil Romeo as the drug-dealing, juvenile hall-living wonderboy whom she takes under her wing? Please, he looks not a day over 9 years old. They could've at least picked someone whose balls had dropped. But I'm getting off track. Time for shower and bed.

MAY 22, 2004 :: 11:30PM

I don't know what to feel. Jammin' to A Tribe Called Quest... feelin' numb.

In the last raw entry, wrote about my ex Rob being in the hospital in a coma. That was the only information I had at the time because his sister's message got cut off. Friday morning I called his work to see if they could shed some light on the situation. Kimberly, his coworker, told me that on Tuesday morning he was in a car accident. He broke both of his legs, an arm and has severe swelling in his brain. He had been in a coma ever since due to all of the sedation. They say he's starting to hold his own and that on Sunday they may be able to begin some reconstructive surgery. After that conversation, his boss [he has a close relationship to work] and his sister both called me on separate occasions, perhaps to give me an update, but I couldn't bring myself to answer the phone. I. Feel. Awful. I want to know everything there is to know about it, but I'm also scared of finding out if anything has gotten worse. Aside from his family, his best friend Randy and I are the only people he has in his life. I feel honored that his family would want to keep me in the loop, considering it has been a long time since he and I were together and I've never even met them. But on the other hand, I'm not sure what they expect of me. If they and/or Rob requested me to be there, I'd go, no doubt. But I'm also scared of being there. I am absolutely horrible at this type of thing. I haven't even shed a single tear, much less expressed any real emotion about this. I feel so numb. My brain isn't believing it yet. I haven't called any of them back yet and I know I should. I will try to call first thing tomorrow, just to get an update. It's just that my lack of emotion during this whole thing may come off as... I don't know... like I don't care about Rob. SO not true. Rob is the only person I ever loved in that sense. It took a lot of healing to get the thought of him out of my mind. Now I think I healed a little bit too well, and that I'm incapable of showing any emotion at all anymore.

MAY 20, 2004 :: 10:45PM

New RAW FILES entry Jammin' to Hieroglyphics... feelin' uneasy.

Title: Surreal. (e-mail for access.)

MAY 18, 2004 :: 11:48PM

Whoa, weird but flattering. Jammin' to Incubus - The Warmth... feelin' infatuated.

Edmond so kindly pointed this out to me. This person is referring to this silly contest I submitted a sound clip to. I didn't even know that site/contest was still up, err, unless that person just has a stellar memory and I suddenly popped into it. Good for an ego stroke though. I downed two double doubles - protein style from In N Out for dinner. It still amazes me how poopular that damn fast food joint is around here. I personally just think it's aight. But as usual, when I got there the drive-thru line was wrapped around the building and spilling out into the parking lot. Argh, I was already there, and was craving the protein burger so I gave in. I didn't feel like experimenting with the Carl's Jr. version of a protein burger. Now I'm debating on showering, massabating, or having my nightly bowl of strawberries and splenda. I think I'll do all of the above. Not necessarily in that order. Goodnight!

MAY 17, 2004 :: 11:59PM

The pretty good mood continues. Jammin' to Les Mis soundtrack... feelin' damn good.

I had a pretty good day today considering it was Monday. The new girl we hired started today and so far she's fitting in with our strange staff. Finally got to clean out the gawd-forsaken front desk that the previous receptionist left in shambles. When I got promoted and we brought in that last chick, I guess she never cared to throw anything away, because there was some stuff in there from when I was the receptionist. Now we get to start from scratch. Hooray. I'm taking Wednesday off because I have the grueling task of bringing my sister to Orange County at 5:mothafuggin'AM, driving home in the heart of morning rush-hour, then going BACK to the OC at 3:mothafuggin'30PM, again in the heart of afternoon rush-hour, to pick her up. Rather than trying to function at work on a couple hours sleep, I decided I deserve the day off. Maybe I'll get those new tires my car is desperate for, or do all my laundry. FUN TIMES. So after a couple weeks of consuming close to no sugar at all [sucralose instead], I decided to make today a cheat day since we had strawberry cheesecake at work and I had dinner plans at the Old Spaghetti Factory tonight. Fuck man, a few bites of the cheezecake and I was already stuffed. The sugar did nada for me. Then at dinner, a few bites of my yummy spaghetti with browned butter and mizithra cheeze, and I was ready to hurl. I was so full. I guess I've lost my sweet tooth/carb craving. That's good I guess. Now I'm just waiting for this video of Porsche pR0n to finish downloading so I can whack off to it and sleep in peace. Thanks for the suggestion babe. ;) Y Oh, btw, if you notice in older entries the line Jammin' to ... feelin' , don't be alarmed. I'm not that dumb. I just recently added a mood and song template to my entries and don't feel like going back through all of them and adding something.

MAY 15, 2004 :: 11:55PM

Strange but eventful day. Jammin' to Miss Saigon... feelin' peculiarly happy.

Let me just say I am quite relieved that the Lakers pulled away with a W tonight and the series win. All night long they were letting the Spurs remain within striking distance but were able to pull away at the right moment. Excellent. The Lakers piss me off plenty with their under-achieving ways, but they definitely showed that they're an excellent closing team tonight. I love this game™. Tonight was full of surprises. Lakers dethroning the Spurs, Mae dying her hair without staining the gleaming white tub, AND cooking dinner without throwing half of it out! Well, I don't know if mixing a package of marinade in with some beef and throwing it on the George Foreman is really cooking, but it's better than nothing! I did some grocery shopping today and remembered to grab some steaks. I didn't even look at the price, just picked up the nearest 4-pack of humungo rib-eyes and threw it in the cart. Later at home I looked at the package and that mothafugga was $35.90!!! Wtf?! Damn, I didn't know cooking real food could be that expensive. I prepared the packaged marinade, threw the steaks in for 15 minutes, then grilled for 10 minutes each. Mmmmmmmm!!! That was freakin tasty. I might prepare that for dinner tomorrow night as well. Better yet I'm gonna start cooking on a daily basis! Muahahaha.. that'll be the day.

MAY 13, 2004 :: 09:40PM

Can I just say... Jammin' to ... feelin'

I am the happiest person alive right now?

MAY 11, 2004 :: 12:05AM

This is me. Jammin' to ... feelin'

M <----- S <----- This is the situation. This is me walking away from the situation. S                        M -----> Goodbye, situation.

MAY 10, 2004 :: 03:09AM

New RAW FILES entry Jammin' to ... feelin'

Title: Mid-night musings. (e-mail for access.)

MAY 08, 2004 :: 08:59PM

Clean, clean, clean! Jammin' to ... feelin'

Well slap me silly and call me Bob Villa. Today I spent a good amount of the day assembling a cabinet. Not just any old cabinet. A liquor cabinet. Not that my sister and I are hardcore alcoholics or anything, but we just thought it'd be a nice addition to the empty wall in the living room. I'm happy to say every piece fit correctly and I didn't fuck anything up. The thing came completely disassembled, in about 100 different pieces. Boy, did my pits stink afterwards. Here is the finished product: Got it for a ridiculously low price too. It looks exactly like the buffet I wanted from Fartery Barn but about $300 less. I think I deserve to pat myself on the back. Afterwards I was dying to take a shower. I stripped down and before I hopped in the shower I started to clear out some crap. What started as just "clearing out some crap" turned into an entire scrubbing of the bathroom floor, bathtub, sink and toilet. Two hours and a gleaming white bathroom later, I'm done. Oh, and I finally ended up taking that long-awaited shower. Woo woo for being clean! /looks around at piles of dirty laundry and messy bedroom. Err, I guess there's still more cleaning to be done. Next week! P.S., I updated the biodome if anyone cares. I don't think many people realize that when you click my little "mae" signature, my bio with a bunch of other mae-related crap pops up. Enjoy!

MAY 07, 2004 :: 06:43PM

Miss Saigon, I've lost count. Jammin' to ... feelin'

I think this will be my fourth time watching Miss Saigon. I just bought tickets for June 19th at the Pantages. RIGHTEOUS! I spent an hour searching each show time for good mezzanine seats. I know the mezz is high but I prefer that over looking up at the stage the entire time. When we watched Phantom a few months ago at Pantages, the mezz seats were great. Ohh Chrrriiiiiiiissssss!!! Today is Friday? WTF?! Where the hell did the week go? Oh yeah, I was busy being sick of the Lakers' version of a playoff performance. Literally, it made my stomach turn. Bah! I feel like taking a nap.

MAY 07, 2004 :: 11:56AM

New RAW FILES entry Jammin' to ... feelin'

Title: And UP goes the rollercoaster! (e-mail for access.)

MAY 04, 2004 :: 10:04AM

Weee, mood swing. Jammin' to ... feelin'

I'm suddenly in a really bad mood. Weirdness. I was fine this morning. I was fine an hour ago when I got into work. I was EVEN fine when I had to explain to someone here why a misspelled email address causes you to receive a returned undeliverable email. Now, I'm quite perturbed. Hmm. I know the exact reason why I'm in this mood, but I'm not gonna tell you what it is. Why? Because it's so... freakin... STUPID! I hate that I get like this because of something so petty. It's not about work, school, certain people, or anything like that. It's about something in particular that's just.. so lame. Ok enuff. Back to work.

MAY 02, 2004 :: 09:46PM

New RAW FILES entry Jammin' to ... feelin'

Title: No feel very good part 2 (e-mail for access.)

MAY 02, 2004 :: 07:50PM

No feel very good. Jammin' to ... feelin'

This morning I did something I rarely ever do on the weekend -- wake up before noon. I rolled out of bed at 9:20 and got ready for mass. Eh? Church? Yeah. My nephew's first communion + lunch reception afterwards. We got to the church just in time. My right eye kept watering for no apparent reason. Signs from above? Heh. Afterwards we congregated outside in the blistering heat and packed up into our cars to head to the buffet. It was 109° in that part of the valley but it didn't seem that hot. I didn't start feeling the heat until my sister and I were driving home and my back was wet and sticking to the seat. Nice. A mixture of the lack of sleep, bad Chinese food, can of Altoids I consumed [again], premenstrual cramps and the Lakers losing is the reason I'm feeling a bit under the weather. When I got home I plopped on the bed and fell asleep for a little bit, then woke up to my sister's incessant calling. She asked me to straighten up a bit because she's bringing our nephews and niece over to see Oliver. Ack... we all know how wonderful I feel after a midday nap too. Need... green.. advils.

MAY 01, 2004 :: 06:38PM

New RAW FILES entry Jammin' to ... feelin'

Title: The closer I get to you... (e-mail for access.)

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