No.. it isn't an oversized dildo made by AEM. It isn't a fake pet snake. It's my cold air intake!! It arrived today in a large box as tall as me. I love it and it loves me.
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current time is 1:38:52 PM
listening to >>> "san dimas hs football rules" (acoustic) by the*ataris
...today, i woke up alone wishing you were here with me. i want us to be something that we'd probably never be...
I am going to head out to Group 5 today and pick up a strut bar while I'm down here since it's just a couple miles away from my parents' house. Oh yeah, did I mention I was at my parents' house right now? Yeah, I did... 2 seconds ago... erh.
What in the hell?! My brother has dirty yucky sweaty socks and empty soda cans under his computer table. Icky. HAHAHA and the clear coating on the mouse is worn off where the index finger mainly clicks. HAHAHA that's funny shit.
On my way to San Diego last night it started raining. I hate driving in rain! My vision is already bad enough, don't need tiny droplets of water all over my windshield hindering my vision even more. When my exit came up, the off ramp goes waaaayyy down this hill and stops at a stoplight. I was turning left... and then the road proceeds to go back up a steep hill. Well my retarded ass decided to go pretty fast through that left turn, my stock tires are not the greatest, so I managed to hydroplane my way through the intersection ending up in the median. Ack. LUCKILY there was no one on the roads or else I would have gotten into a bad accident. DAMNIT. I need new tires... and... uhh ... yeah.
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current time is 6:23:26 PM
No.. it isn't an oversized dildo made by AEM. It isn't a fake pet snake. It's my cold air intake!! It arrived today in a large box as tall as me. I love it and it loves me.
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current time is 9:29:39 AM
current time is 10:14:29 PM
listening to >>> "if only you knew" by patti labelle
In a way, I am thankful that life is as complicated as it is. What if it wasn't? What if everything was easy as pie? The world would be one fucked up place, I can guarantee you that. No one would have any ambitions, goals, nothing. We wouldn't feel the heartbreak that causes us to cherish love. We wouldn't have the failures that give us strength and wisdom. Man, if I could have a perfect world, I'd say no thanks. I like to earn my happiness, not handed to me on a silver platter.
The same thing goes for love. I want to earn a perfect relationship, even fight for it if I have to. You see, I met this perfect guy. Yes, he was perfect for me in every way. But, that was his only problem. He was TOO perfect for me! We never fought, and when we did it was over something stupid because I was almost scavenging for things to pick fights with him about just for the sake of fighting. Well, the perfection slowly faded and we had settled into a drama-filled relationship. That was when I realized how much effort I had to put into it to make it work. That is also when I realized how much I needed him in my life, and I loved him more than ever.
So anyway, I'm sorry for the lecture tonight. Just feeling a little profound I suppose. Thank you ALL for the e-mails, I read every single one of them and smiled even more with each message. I love you guys and gals!
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current time is 11:48:58 PM
Owww...what in the hell? My right collar bone is aching so bad.
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current time is 10:57:37 PM
:: watching >>> "next friday"
current time is 8:37:47 PM
:: listening to >>> current sad song on playlist.
Crying is probably the best remedy for getting over pain. Well, at least for me it is.
I hate when I act like this. I hate being angry because to me it shows how weak I am and how easily I succumb to my own emotions. I feel so lonely. I just need a fucking shoulder to try on. Arm, chest, whatever, I don't care what body part. Just something, someone. If I wasn't so damn stubborn and proud I would go over and talk to my sister and just cry, cry, cry and cry. Then I'd cry some more. I know she is there for me, she makes it known. I just have too much pride. It is how my mother raised me. It is too hard for me to show emotion to the people whom I truly need comfort from. But I can't let anyone ever see me cry. I just can't. If I let someone see me cry, I am giving them a wide open shot at my vulnerability... and I can't show anyone how vulnerable I really am.
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current time is 7:20:28 PM
listening to >>> "echo" by incubus
As I suspected... the bad day streak continues and gets worse as the time goes along.
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current time is 11:22:47 PM
I just did a major renovation on my buddy list. I cut it down from 140something to 69 people. That number was accidental, by the way. I pretty much left only the people whom I can stand having a conversation with without feeling the need to block them right away. I also block all those who are not on my buddy list, so if you've been trying to catch me on AIM and I'm never on, sowwy, you're probably not on my buddy list. But e-mail me because I like reading e-mail and I will probably add you after that.
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current time is 10:54:42 PM
I went to bed about half an hour ago. Played a little bit of SNAKE on my cell phone. Got pissed off because I will never, ever, ever beat my top score ever again (1737). Then I got back up and jumped back on the computer because I can't sleep. I'm a little perturbed at what happened today and a LOT perturbed that I had typed the whole fucking thing out and blogger decides to make it disappear without a trace.
I AM SO PISSED RIGHT NOW.
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current time is 9:19:33 PM
Oh. My. God.
I JUST typed out a long rant and FUCKING BLOGGER didn't publish it. It just... disappeared.
current time is 8:03:14 PM
Today was a bad day.
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