aka my messy room
current time is 1:08:28 AM
listening to >>> "what my heart says" by monica
I like this song.
*sigh* I'm stressing out more than ever. I'm literally flat broke. My love life is in the dumps. It's Christmas and I can't even buy simple greeting cards for my loved ones. Most of all, I've cut off all ties with that guy I'm trying to get over.. and it sucks. I miss talking to him. I miss those times a few months ago when we'd talk every single day on the phone until early morning hours. Aye... enough about him.
Tomorrow I'm going to meet up with a few moderators from Superhonda. We're all gonna meet at Speedzone in LA at around 6pm. I'm looking forward to it for a few reasons. 1) I get to meet the people I've been interacting with for the past couple months finally, 2) I'm getting out of the house for an extended amount of time, 3) It will hopefully keep my mind off of you know who, 4) It'll be fun! I'm gonna have to borrow money from my mom though. I hate having to do that.
I hate my bank and I hate 24 Hour Fitness. Every month, 24 Hour Fitness automatically takes out $16 for my monthly dues from my savings account. There are many times where they've taken money out too early and caused me to have overdrafts which then results in an $18 bank charge. So anyway, I decided I'm tired of this bullshit and I finally closed my bank account. I then called 24 Hour Fitness and told them to cancel my account. They told me they needed ten days notice. So, I have zero dollars in my savings account and they're gonna take another $16 out. You know what happens after that? Yep another $18 bank charge. Why can't my fucking bank just refuse any new charges since my account is already fucking closed?! Geezus!! You know why? Because they WANT to charge me that extra $18!! That's why! FUCK! I can't put money in now, because I bet they already processed this month's $16 payment. I'm also broke. I need all the money in my checking account right now because I just paid my damn car payment. ARGGHH! I have so many bills to pay it's not even funny. There's my car, my website, my credit card, the fucking gym, ack. I'm so stressed.
Oh yeah to "J.C" who commented on the last post, no I haven't gone to the runs lately... not since I was in high school! Hell I don't even know where they are anymore. Hehe. BTW, who are you? Do I know you from SHO? Ok nevermind.. bye.
Damn the only thing I've eaten all day is tostitos nacho chips with this yummy spicey cheese dip. I better go eat something... I have a long day ahead of me tomorrow...goodnight.
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current time is 2:33:23 AM
listening to >>> "grown up christmas list" by monica
What... the.. fuck?! Why are all my archives gone?! Mudder Fawker! I swear they better not have vanished or else.. that will piss me off! Arggghh. The new BLOGGER is fast and all, but it keeps fucking up my shit. I'm gonna be so sad if my archives are gone for good. Sometimes I read them over... to relive happy moments and learn from sad moments. The other night I was reliving some happy moments.. around the end of August, beginning of September. *sigh* After that, it all went downhill.
It doesn't feel like it should be Christmas. I don't feel joyous. I don't feel warmth and cheer and all that other BS. Today I was reading the Girl-Racer forum on the Superhonda City Scene board. I go there quite often and chick chat with the gals... so anyway, if you've ever chatted with me on AIM, you'll know that my buddy icon is this little fella. I also use that as a personal icon on the City Scene board, and some dude called me out on it. He made a thread titled "so who wants to eat mae out" or something like that! What the heck!? I'm not offended, but it's like... you actually took the TIME to do that? Weirdo.
Anyways... I have four empty water bottles sitting on my desk in front of me. Boy am I going to piss tonight or what. You: "yeah... thanks for the info Mae" Me: "no problem"
I tried to go to bed around 1am. I turned off my lights and cuddled with my boombox. I played one of the saddest songs ever written over and over and over... and over again. "Doin' Just Fine" by Boyz II Men. I thought I could have myself a good long cry and this BS would be out of my system. It didn't work. I felt the heartache rushing through my body, but for some reason it wouldn't come out through tears this time. It's as if it was trapped. No luck.. my plan backfired on me and actually caused more grief.
I seriously need to get over this guy.
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current time is 2:17:30 PM
current time is 1:09:46 PM
listening to >>> "why do i believe" by pebbles
Just testing out my new blogvoices thing-a-ma-jigger.
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current time is 5:41:07 PM
listening to >>> "with you" by tony terry
WTF is wrong with me? Why can't I just get over him already?!
Oh yeah I'm not talking about my ex by the way... just wanted to clarify that. Anyways, whatsup folks. Yesterday I thought I lost my car/house/bedroom keys. I was in a state of panic running all through out the house, calling each place I went to last night, I even had to climb through my window to get inside my room. Thank GOD it wasn't latched. This morning I woke up feeling shitty because I didn't have my keys. I dunno why losing my keys made me all depressed. So anyway my brother called me to pick him up so I got dressed and grabbed my spare car key. I tried to stick my key in the ignition but something was in the way. I looked underneath the steering wheel to see what it was... it was my keys. *duh* I looked every where except the ignition. I even looked in the back seat, in the glove box, under all the mats, in between the seats, I wonder why I didn't see them in the ignition?? I'm a dumbass.
I hate my hair! It's getting long and it's a bitch to brush when I get out of the shower. See, my hair is pretty thick. It's not all bushy knappy and curly, it's just long straight and thick. [Get your mind out of the gutter] I have to use up almost ¼ of the conditioner bottle every time I wash my hair. I've gone through 5 bottles of average sized bottles already since November! It's so hard to brush when it's wet so I just leave it tangled until it dries. For some reason when my hair dries it's not tangled anymore. Weird.
I gotta go... time to polish my nails.
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current time is 2:04:51 AM
Damn I miss him....... =*(
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current time is 1:20:38 AM
listening to >>> "because i love you" by dnh
OK, now I think I have definitely found the wheels I want and this time it's realistic because I won't have to sell my body to be able to afford them. I still would love some Volk TE-37s in gunmetal *droool* but they're just too damn expensive. Instead I want some 5Zigen 5ZR Copse wheels. They're 5-spoke and kinda look like Racing Hart C5's except not as expensive. They come in silver and have a blue 5ZR logo on the spoke which will work very nicely with my silver/blue color scheme. I found them for $1299 with Yokohama tires at Wheel Warehouse which is a pretty good deal. Plus the store is in So Cal so I don't have to pay shipping fees and I can look at them in person. I still gotta pay tax though. Arrghh.. that's another hundred bucks or so. Oh well, they're dope! I'm hoping to get them by the end of January.
So anyway, we're about to cancel AOL since my mom got that $400 signing bonus if we switched to MSN. I'm using MSN right now... it's ok, it has a nice interface. Thank goodness for AIM because if I wasn't able to IM my friends everyday I think I'd die. I get to keep my screen name too. So yeah, my new e-mail address [again, I know] is mae_perez@msn.com. I need a permanent, professional email address to use when submitting my resume and what not. I'm growing up! Heh heh... I miss AOL's simplicity, but I'll get used to MSN sooner or later.
Jason came over today. My parents and relatives went out to some fob party and Jason and I had the whole house to ourselves. [Get your filthy minds out of the gutter] We watched Gladiator on DVD on my new Sony Wega. That TV is freakin' dope ass. I didn't even need to wear my glasses cuz the screen is so clear. I think Jason is finally accepting the fact that I only want to be friends. He didn't make one move on me all night! Good boy. Now that's the brother-type guy I've grown to love. Heh heh.
Well I'm gonna go write a kick ass resume cover letter now.. goodnight.
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