current time is 3:02:08 AM
listening to >>> "can't believe" by mya
Get your ass on napster and download this song!!!! Listen to the lyrics... and that pretty much sums up my mood tonight. Especially the beginning that goes "You told me that you didn't love her anymore.. and then you turn around and you walk out the door.." Ack! I hate being jealous. This certain person is obviously making a valid attempt at making me jealous, even though he knows very well that it doesn't take much to do so. I have no idea why he's rubbing every little detail about this girl in my face. It makes me sick!
Anyways, I'm sorry for the lack of blogging once again. Hey I pretty much update every day, I've just missed a few hours here and there.. I don't feel the desire to drain out my emotions on the keyboard lately because there's so much emotion built up inside. I'm craving a smoothie!
Err.. that last sentence was out of place. Anyway, below is the webcam pic for today. Luckily it's not of me, so don't worry. What you're looking at is my white board written all over with guys' telephone numbers. Hahaha really! You can only see half of the board right now though since my webcam isn't like panoramic and shit. For the sake of privacy I flipped the picture so you can't make out the numbers, but let me tell you who's digits are on there....
current time is 9:29:23 PM
listening to >>> "i miss you" by klymaxx
I miss you... there's no other way to say it and I... I can't deny it.
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current time is 1:33:26 AM
listening to >>> "miss jackson" by outkast
I gotta wake up early tomorrow. I told my friend to call me when he wakes up and force me to get up. I have a lot of errands to run... like mail my unemployment benefits application thing. I hope to get my first check by the end of this week so I can afford to pay my car bill. If not, I'm gonna have to borrow money from my parents again which I hate doing. Last thing I need is a reason for them to be more strict on me.
Today while I was watching the Laker game with my dad my mom asked a question that caught me off guard. She asked "Gerimae, how come Jerry (my four year ex) never comes here anymore or calls?" Umm.... I avoided the question. "Did you guys break up?" Ummm... I dunno. "He doesn't live in LA now does he? And that's not why you're moving there right?" Hahaha... no mom he doesn't live in LA. "Mmmhmm.. sure." Hehe... silly mom. You know what, in four long years, my dad probably said 4 words total to my ex. Probably not even that much, I'm dead serious. Whenever my ex said Hi to him my dad would simply ignore him. Well, I guess you'd expect that from someone like my dad. He's extremely overprotective when it comes to guys.
You know, just when I thought I had things figured out for once (see yesterday's post) I have another curve ball pitched to me. Remember how I cancelled that promising job interview in Irvine because I'd have nowhere to live if I got the job? Well a high school friend of mine just called me today and said he might need a roommate. Guess where he lives. Yep, Irvine. Ack! He's not sure if he'll need one yet, but still, if he does need one I threw away a chance at a perfectly good job! Geez. Just my luck.. this shit always happens to me. *sigh* Now I'm confused all over again. Blah.
I'm trying not to think about that too much yet... I still haven't worked out details about my whole move to my mom. She thinks I already have a job waiting for me up there, remember? That's the only way she'll let me move in peace. Today she said "When we go to LA, you're gonna show me where your office is OK?" Ahhhh shit... Ok Mom.. Now I'm gonna have to find some place beforehand and pretend it's my future office. Geez I hate having to lie to my parents.
current time is 1:42:39 AM
listening to >>> "what my heart says" by monica
Did any of you watch that MTV movie Love Song starring Monica and this other dude? I was at my friend's house watching it Friday night. Pretty good story line, bad acting, but an awesome song. The lyrics of the song compliment the movie so well, I just had to download it off of Napster. I'm such a sucker for love songs.
I didn't do anything today. I stayed home because this morning I was sneezing like crazy. The weather has been getting colder and the sun no longer shows it's face. It hides behind the gray clouds all day long. Plus, my mom seems to think I'm still 14 years old and won't even let me stay out past 11. That's some shit huh? Nineteen years old with an 11 pm curfew. I know people younger than me who don't even have a curfew. Well, I'm allowed to stay out later, but my mom worries when I'm driving late at night. I know she only nags cuz she cares, but honestly, this is really annoying. I can't wait until I'm out of here.
I don't know what I'm going to do with my life.. (Uh oh, here's where Mae gets all serious and philosophical.. skip to the next paragraph if you like) I've been unemployed for almost two months now. I'm pretty sure all my old co-workers have already found great jobs and are settled with their new co-workers. I miss them. I miss my desk. I miss my computer and stash of candy in my file cabinet. I miss working and getting paid on the 15th and last day of every month. Shit, I miss having money! I decided to just find a job on my own now. Forget those damn recruiters. I e-mailed my resume to this really interesting company in San Diego and one in Los Angeles. If I get the job in San Diego, I'm going to stay here for a few months until Kristine and I are ready to find our own place in Santa Monica. If I get the job in Los Angeles, I'm going to crash at my aunt's place for a while until summer (which is when Kristine and I are planning on getting a place). Both ways, I'll be able to spare rent expenses for the time being and save for my car and/or future living expenses. I think for once I've finally got things figured out.
So let me tell you about the jobs I applied for. The one in San Diego is for an administrative assistant to the CEO in a software corporation. It's right near my house, a BIG plus! They also only list the required computer skills as Word, Excel, and Outlook. Usually positions like these require you to know PowerPoint and Access as well. I also like that it's for a software company. Software developers tend to be less anal as opposed to other industries such as Marketing, Sales, etc. The one in Los Angeles is a little different, it's for an administrative web programmer. They didn't list any required languages, so I'm assuming they want someone with basic coding skills, like me! I'm really pulling for that one even if it doesn't pay as much as I'd want (they didn't list a salary). Reason being, it would give me some experience in this field which I can list for future web programming positions. Right on! Well, either position would be great... so I'm crossing my fingers. *sigh* I've always hated looking for jobs.
My sleeping habits are horrible. I can't wake up early for the life of me! Even at 2:30 PM today I had to drag myself out of bed! This can't be healthy. I'm wasting away the whole day sleeping in my bed. Most people would consider that quality time, but hey, I want to know what morning looks like again! Oh good, it's 1:40 am and I'm kinda sleepy. As soon as I'm finished with this blog I'm hittin the sack. *yawwwwn* Yes! Do not adjust your monitor settings, yes my friends that was a yawn! Heh... ok... sleepy time. G'night.
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