current time is 12:44:49 AM
listening to >>> "you've got a way" by shania twain
Hey! I'm out of my emotional slump! Cool.
I don't know what I'm going to do. I blew off my job for a promising interview in LA, I blew off the interview in LA because I'm not sure if I want to move up there just yet. I've got such a bad work ethic. I really didn't know what I had until it was gone. My job at Motiva, that is. Now that I think about it, that job was one of the coolest jobs a girl my age could ever have. Well, I can't dwell on it anymore, I just gotta move on and find another job REAL soon because I might not be able to make my next car payment. Ack.
My new suspension is in! Finally! I'm such a dork. I kept driving around taking turns all fast and shit. I swear like I have supreme handling or something! Haha! Nah, but once I get new grippier tires and stiffer shocks I'll have better handling. I also need a strut bar and an anti-sway bar. Cool! I'm actually getting somewhere with this expensive hobby of mine. After my suspension work is to my standards, next comes my cold air intake. Hmm.. wait, maybe I'll get the intake next. Heh, I dunno. OH WAIT! I need to get rims first. =P Sheesh this thing never ever ends I tell ya.
Enough about my slow-as-shit car. What else has happened in the past couple days... oh, my ex called my cell today. I guess he assumes that I had nothing to do on a Friday night, and he probably has nothing to do so he thinks I'd go out with him. Wrong buddy. I went to my friend's house to visit her and her two little adorable kids. Joseph, the 3 year old, climbed on top of me and said "you have big boobs!" HAHAHA! What a perverted little kid. He's cute but he's way too hyper.
Hmm.. it's only 12:23 am but it feels like it's 2 or 3. I'm actually sleepy too! Whoa.. I usually can't sleep till about 4 am. Yummmm... I'm eating Haagen-Dazs coffee ice cream with some sliced bananas. Yummmm... I don't know why I'm eating ice cream when I'm already freezing my ass off. *brRRrRrrRrr*
You know what, lately the only site I've been on when I go online is SuperHonda. It's a honda/acura tuning and tech web board. I've met a lot of weird and crazy yet really cool people on that board. It's like one big family. It comes complete with the drama too! Haha.. yeah I'm serious. The board has so much drama it's not even funny. I've been registered since August and I freakin' have 742 posts. And that's not even considered a lot! Some people have post counts in the 1000s and my friend Carlos has over 2K!! Crazy guy. Anyways, I suggest you check it out if you're into the import tuning thing. Look for me, my username is phayze one and I usually post in the Civic, Suspension, and Integra forum.
Ok that's all, bye now!
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current time is 11:14:40 PM
listening to >>> "against all odds" by mariah carey
"...how can i just let you walk away, just let you leave without a trace? when i stand here taking every breath.. you're the only one who really knew me at all. how can you just walk away from me, when all i can do is watch you leave? cuz we've shared the laughter and the pain, and even shared the tears... you're the only one who really knew me at all... so take a look at me now, there's just an empty space. there's nothing left here to remind me, just the memory of your face. take a look at me now, there's just an empty space. and you comin' back to me is against the odds and that's what i've got to face..."
I love Mariah's rendition of this song. *sigh* Damn! When am I gonna get out of my emotional slump?!
Okay.. it's only 11:09 PM and I'm unusually sleepy. It feels like it's really late already. Maybe it's because I woke up early this morning. Wow, I think my sleeping habits just might go back to normal. Right on! Oh, plans have changed again. I'm moving to LA sooner than January. I'll crash at my aunt's place until I can figure out my living situation. Kristine and I are planning on finding a place in January.. but we haven't worked out any details yet.
5 days until my 19th birthday. It's nothing special. Like I told Aivy the other day, the only thing special that happens when I turn 19 is that now I can get hired at Deja Vu and make money in the champagne room. HAHA! Riiiight Mae. Ok, I must go. Goodnight.
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current time is 12:39:40 AM
listening to >>> "your baby never looked good in blue" by exposé
Hmm.. I can't sleep. I'm a little sad. For those of you who come here from Superhonda, sorry for sounding all sappy right now. I'm not always like this, well yeah lately I have been. It's just I want something I can't have.. and you know how that goes. *sigh* It's taking me an abnormally long amount of time to get over it, but don't worry eventually I will.
Well I start work tomorrow morning, or later today I should say. I'm going to be working for an executive search firm called Lee Hecht Harrison. It's a similar position to what I used to do at Motiva. I'm a little excited because it's close by my house and close to a local shopping mall. Right across the street from UTC to be exact. Heheh. They were also very impressed with my resumé so that gives me an extra ounce of motivation to work hard. Wish me luck! I'll finally be able to buy my rims with my next paycheck! Yes!
I worked on my new layout for supermae.net for about ten minutes today then closed photoshop. I'm so tired of web design now. I keep using the same design concepts over and over again. I'm too lazy to learn new programs so I guess it's my own fault if this whole thing is played out to me. But I gotta keep myself motivated if I wanna make a career out of this hobby. It's so weird to me when people compliment my site cuz honestly, it looks pretty shitty to me. Bleh.
Damn it's cold!
You know, lately I haven't been ghosting on AOL. Sure, I get a lot of weird IMs but it's kinda funny now. I get to meet new people who got my sn from Superhonda and stuff. So anyways, if you ever wanted to chat with me my sn is sup3rmae or happy raisins. Just try not to stalk me... or ask me weird questions like whether or not I know what an LS/VTEC swap consists of. Heheh. Trust me I get those technical questions all the time and I will be the first to admit that I am the last person on earth to be asking.
Oh yeah, I want Gore to win. Goodnight.
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current time is 1:38:23 AM
Contigo En La Distancia - Mae's version
Hey, I was feeling narcissistic. I have expensive audio recording software and I finally put it to use! So how does my español sound? Heheheh.
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current time is 12:49:54 AM
listening to >>> "one last cry" by brian mcknight
Damn. I seriously think I'm falling in love with this certain person. Ack! I can't help it, but I don't want to be! He's all wrong for me. He hardly gives me the time of day anymore, not as much as he used to. I used to be his number one priority, now I'm just "someone he knows". Sucks huh?! And even though I've been doing my thang, seeing other guys, flirting here and there, I still get soooo jealous when I shouldn't even be. Just the thought of him being in any kind of contact with a female makes me furious! Gawd! WHY ME?! The tiniest remnants of him make me all sad and shit.
Anyway, remember my old domain supermae.net? Well I am going to revive that domain and turn it into a portfolio site. When I move out I am going to take some multimedia/graphic design classes and hopefully change my career path to something I actually enjoy doing. I'm tired of being an office manager! I'm tired of administrative shit. I want to be a web developer. Hey, I know my sites may look pretty butt right now, but that's what school is for! A portfolio site is a must if I'm going to pursue a webgal career. Eek I'm excited.
*sigh* man... ok well I gotta go to sleep. Goodnight.
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current time is 8:19:32 PM
listening to >>> "tender kisses" by tracie spencer
I found a job. I start tomorrow morning at 9am. There's a slight problem though. This always happens to me when I'm looking for a job. Either I have zero jobs to choose from, or at least two. I went to a job interview this morning and I'm almost positive that they will hire me within the next couple days. I am also positive that they will pay more than what tomorrow's job is going to pay. *sigh* This always happens to me. You know what I'm going to do, I'm going to call the other job and tell them that I won't be available for work until Monday. I'll see how I like tomorrow's job and then I'll decide whether or not I'll stick with it. Damn.. I really hate when this happens because I almost always regret my decision afterwards.
I witnessed to most hilarious fender bender today. Well, luckily it was only a fender bender so no one was hurt. But anyway, I was at a four way stop and some asian girl in a semi-hooked up prelude was in front of me. We were both turning right. In the other lane (the road which we were both going to turn into) there was an integra with a bunch of guys in it. They were staring at the girl in the prelude trying to get her attention and the girl was just like umm whatever. Hahaha and then the next thing you know the guy rolls into incoming traffic and hits some lady in an old Buick. They're trying to be all smoooooth with the girl. What morons. Today's lesson kids, it's ok to look at nice looking members of the opposite sex, but please keep your eyes on the road!
Thanks to everyone who signed my guestbook... Hehe sorry, I didn't mean for that comment in my last post to sound so desperate and demanding. But thanks! I really appreciate it even if you only put a couple words. I'd install my CGI guestbook again but I'm too lazy to reconfigure it for my new server and shit. I just took the easy way out and signed up for an Alxbook since they're way better than gbook.nu.
Well anyways... I'm gonna go now. Bye!
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current time is 1:22:32 AM
listening to >>> "temptations" by destiny's child
Ooohhh... this song is badass. But my soundcard is fucked up so I'm listening to it through my ghetto boom box.
Ok, well I finally got my site to work along with all my hostees pages. Yeah! I am the woman! I was about to rip my hair out with the previous host because their technical support couldn't do jack shit to help me out. I wrote them a nasty e-mail demanding my money to be refunded. That should teach them not to fuck with me when I'm already pissed. >=) Well so far I'm really happy with my new host. I've been hounding their tech support like crazy but they always return my e-mails within an hour. They rock! HostGO rocks!
Someone sign my guestbook please?
Seven days and counting until my 19th birthday. It falls on a Monday. How lame huh? I don't have any plans so far. Well of course I'm going to eat dinner with my family but other than that I'm not sure. My last four birthdays were spent with my ex, so it's kind of weird now. I don't have a special somebody to take me out to some nice restaurant and give me cheesy little romantic gifts. Heheh.. not that it's a big deal though. *sigh* But it sure is nice.
My car payment is due on Tuesday. Shit.. that reminds me I better write out the check now so I can put it in the mail tomorrow [err.. later today] Oh! While I'm at it I better write out a check to my credit card company too. Ack. My money is slowly going away. Doh! I can't find my credit card statement. I am sooo disorganized. All my important loan documents and other important shit is just lying all over my bedroom floor. No wonder I can never find anything when I need it. When I move out I have to learn to be more responsible than this. Damn the real world sucks ass sometimes.
Jason's not mad at me anymore. *whew* He called me a couple nights ago like at around 1am. I was on my way home from my friend's house and his exit was coming up so I stopped by his place for a little bit. I ended up falling asleep there. NOOOOO we didn't do anything. Just talked. Geez like you've never heard of a guy and a girl alone in the same room together without doing the nasty or something. Heheh. Seriously though, our relationship is nothing like that. It's completely platonic. Poor guy, he has this monster bruise on his lower back from playing basketball. It looks so painful.. and very gross. *shudders*
I met this one cool guy named RAY last week. Haha, I don't think he'll ever read this but HI RAY if you are. He's pretty dope... not your typical asian. He freakin' knows like all my northside AND southside friends. Damn I mean usually I meet people and they either know my northside friends or southside friends but this guy knows both. Geez so popular. Haha. It's a small world afterall. =P That was lame. Ok well gotta go, goodnight.
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current time is 11:40:56 PM
work motherfucker!
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current time is 11:28:24 PM
AWWWW yeah.....
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