current time is 2:56:39 PM
listening to >>> "what i got" by sublime
Hm, pardon my last post. It was late at night and I drank so much water my stomach started to hurt. Eww I know. I woke up kinda delusional this morning. It was all quiet in my house. My mom's bedroom door is locked and my brother's not home...? It made me even more confused. I've been on the computer since I woke up at 1:30 and now it's 3. Oh lawd. I need to get out of the house. Laters.
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current time is 1:25:39 AM
listening to >>> "i do" by boyz II men
Have you ever consumed so much water, you had to take a shit?
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current time is 10:56:33 PM
listening to >>> "twenty foreplay" by janet jackson
Yeah, this song gets me in a freaky mood too. Freakin' Janet Jackson and her freaky songs. BrRRrrRrRrr it's cold! My hands and feet are freezing. It was raining kittens and puppies today. I just washed my car too! Oh well, I knew it was coming. Earlier when I went to fill up my gas tank I had like a brain fart or something cuz I parked on the wrong side of the gas pump. My tank is on the drivers side and I dunno why but I parked at a pump closer to my passengers side. I must have looked like a royal idiot cuz I stood there for a couple seconds, went back in my car and drove around the gas station parking on the right side this time. This guy was looking at me like I was an airhead.
I went to Jason's house today. I fell asleep on his big ass bed. I don't see why one person needs to sleep in a king size bed. No, he wasn't in the bed with me, he was watching TV from his desk chair. My damn phone kept ringing all loud in my ear. I was surprised Jason wasn't asking who was calling me. I don't even remember who was calling me. I think it was my brother. Oh yeah they finally fixed my garage door! Yesss.
I'm moving servers once again for [hopefully] the last time in a long long long time. I sent Jason my check and he gave me all the nameserver info. Hostees, if you're reading this, be prepared to move now! The time has come finally gotdamnit. Ok, I'm all out of things to say so g'night.
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current time is 10:51:11 AM
listening to >>> "anytime, anyplace" by janet jackson
Aww yeah.... this song gets me in a freaky mood. Haha! Well it does! Like I told my friend [hi kev] last night. It's very sensual. Especially since it's raining over here. The weather goes with the mood of the song. OK let's change the subject now.
I had my work orientation today. Blah! I don't like it. I can still turn down the job if I want to, which I'll probably do. The people there are a bunch of fruit cakes, the hours are shitty, it's far from my house, they have me sitting in this tomb like office which has no damn windows! It's like I'm sitting in a closet. And to top it all off.. this guy I used to see works there!! He'd be under my supervision and that's just gonna be way too weird. I passed by him and we both had to do a double take. We stared at each other for a good five seconds and I walked away cuz I was on my way to the ladies' room. Man.. I have interviews lined up next week that I haven't cancelled yet either. That's it, I'm turning down the job and keeping next week's interviews. Ugh I'm so picky when it comes to jobs.
I really didn't like the people I met today at that job. Half of them are these middle aged overweight white-trash-esque women. They didn't even talk to me! There were like five of them hogging two boxes of donuts and they didn't offer any to me! Geez! Ya'll know how it is with me and donuts. Haha lame. Anyways, there was this one blond who thought she was still in the 80s or something cuz she was wearing skin tight blue jeans, an oversided shirt tied at the bottom and some bedazzler-studded belt. Um, fashion victim! Hahaha. I could go on and on at the things I saw there but I don't want to bore you even more.
It was raining really hard this morning. My sweater is dry clean only and the rain is making the material feel weird. Oh! I visited my friend yesterday instead of her coming over to my house. Joseph, her 3 year old son, is so hyper! OMG he's the cutest kid ever, but damn he wore me out. I was lying down on my stomach playing with Juliana [her daughter who is 1 yr old] on the carpet and Joseph kept climbing on top of the couch and jumping onto my rear end. Apparently it's cushioned enough for him. Haha. Then Juliana was getting hungry or something so she kept grabbing my breasts. Na uh girl don't look at me for that shit! It was cool visiting her. I haven't seen her in over a year I think. We caught up on old times. I told her the news about me and my ex finally breaking up. She said what everyone says, "yeah right, then you're gonna get back together." But I told her what happened and she's all "finally!" Most of my friends are glad that I finally ended it with him.
I gotta go eat some brunch now. I'm starving! Bye!
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current time is 2:02:18 PM
listening to >>> "i miss you" by klymaxx
Err.. what's up with all my 'miss you' songs? I dunno, it's just a coincidence, really. Anyway, guess what. I GOT A JOB! I start work tomorrow. Eh I wish they could just let me start on Monday but they want me to come in tomorrow. It's alright I guess. I have work at 7am to 4pm though and it's in PQ. It's about the same distance as my last job. Eh. It's alright. I am pretty interested in the company though. It's a music company that specializes in commercial jingles and background music and other stuff like that. Dope! That's a different environment. I can finally buy my damn rims already. One paycheck should do the trick. I'm gonna have to drive by there tonight to make sure I know where it's at.
One of my best friends of like five years called me today! It's odd because I tried calling her a couple days ago but all her numbers were disconnected. I'm so glad she called me! She's coming over today with her two cutie kids. Darn she should have called me while I was out of work so I could spend more time with her. Doh! It's alright. I'm probably gonna kick it with her all weekend since her husband is overseas. He's a marine. Can you believe she's married with two kids and she's only 19?! Crazy girl. She's one of the only girls I can get along with though cuz we're both equally sexually perverted. Haha! Maybe I'm more perverted now though since she has a family and all. I can't wait till she gets here!
Well I gotta go pick up my bro now... I'll write more later tonight. Bye!
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current time is 10:40:01 PM
listening to >>> "miss you most" by mariah carey
It's so quiet in the house. Since my dad's been gone my mom goes to sleep way early, and my brother locks himself in his room on the phone with his girlfriend. I went out to buy myself some dinner and got home and the whole house was dark. Keep in mind it was only about 7 or 8 at night. I sat at the dinner table all alone and ate my burrito. There was nothing on TV so I watched The Wedding Singer again. I didn't get to finish the movie last time because it started to depress me. This time I watched it until the end. I feel like such a dork cuz at the end where he was singing to her in the airplane.. I started to cry. It's been a while since I've been genuinely happy. Lately I haven't been too down but that empty feeling in the back of my heart still lingers.
I need to pay my bills. I'm such a procrastinator. They've been sitting on my desk shelf for a week untouched. I still have to send my web host check to Jason already so I can move my damn site for good. I'm sorry that I haven't updated my site in like a month. I have the time, I just don't have the inclination. No one even reads the actual site anymore anyway.. or do they? Some people don't even know I have a whole site. They stop at my blog, think "oh god this is lame", and then leave. Maybe I'll update it tonight.
Or maybe not.
This is weird, I didn't see Jason or talk to him all day long. That's a first. I've either chilled with him or talked to him on the phone everyday since that one night he called me out of nowhere. He's not mad at me anymore or anything. He had a full day at school today and I think he has like a major test tomorrow or something so he's studying his ass off. He called my cell earlier today while I was in the shower but he didn't leave a message. Hm oh well.
My garage door opener is broken. Whenever I wanna go somewhere I have to freakin' lift that heavy ass wooden door by myself. And since anyone can just open the door whenever they want, my mom has to park the truck up like an inch away from the garage door. It's a pain in the ass. My mom keeps saying she'll call the repair guy but she's freakin' lagging. *sigh* I'm not in a good mood.
Got another search engine hit by the way. cute rave girl pics. First of all, I'm not cute. Second of all, I have no pics on my site. Third of all, I'm not a raver! I'm beginning to think you guys are searching weird ass things and clicking my site link on purpose just so I'll write about it. Haha! Ok here's the list so far of search queries:
current time is 4:21:25 PM
listening to >>> "artificial sweetener" by no doubt
Remember when I named my layout after this song? That was one of my more simple layouts but I liked the colors I used very much. Hmm.. I wonder who is my longest visitor. Meaning.. I wonder which one of you guys out there has been a visitor of mine for the longest time. It's interesting to know these kinds of things.
I didn't do jack shit today. Similar to what I've been doing since I got laid off. I guess I didn't get that job since I haven't heard back from them but oh well. I wasn't that interested in it anyway. I should really look for a job though because my next insurance payment is due pretty soon. Damn.. I liked staying at home like a bum. It's actually a good thing that I have bills and stuff cuz if I didn't then I'd really not look for a job.
Ok well I have nothing to say. Bye.
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current time is 11:47:14 PM
listening to >>> "can't believe" by mya
Boo hoo hoo... love sucks.
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current time is 5:44:40 PM
listening to >>> "i'd still say yes" by klymaxx
Hehe... ok. I got a new search engine hit. This time it was cute virgin. Now I am really confused as to how that happened. Heheh... no further comment.
I slept at 4 am last night. The previous night I slept at 5 am. Uh oh I'm becoming a vampire again. I didn't wake up until 1:30 this afternoon. Geez a whole day wasted. I went online for a little bit, took a shower and picked up my brother from school. Went home, went back online for a little bit, and got something to eat with Jason. We shared a plate of carne asada fries. Yumm.. I couldn't finish that shit by myself so we split it. He also had a carne asada burrito. Geez! That guy eats like a fucking fat ass but he's still thin. He plays basketball with his friends every Tuesday at the rec so he stays in shape. Oh, today is Tuesday. I'm gonna go watch him take his friends to school on the court. Haha he's pretty good. He appreciates my love for the game as well.
"Take it at face value." A lesson I must embed into my brain. I'm confused about something.. but rather than be my usual self and rip the meaning to pieces, I'm listening to the angel on my shoulder and taking it at face value. If you're confused as to WTF I'm babbling about, it's ok. I'm just making mental notes right now.
Well my bro wants to go online and I'm gonna head over to the rec to watch Jason play some b-ball. I'll write more later tonight before I go to sleep. Bye!
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current time is 9:04:10 PM
listening to >>> "doin' time" by sublime featuring snoop dogg
WTF... damn perverts be visiting my site! I got another weird search engine query hit. Last time someone searched sexy collage girl and my site was fourth on the list. Now someone searches fucking anatomy of a virgin and my site is FIRST on the list?! WTF?! I'm serious, go to yahoo.com and search those two items and phayze1.com will come up. Man yahoo is freakin' weird. I dunno why it lists my site all the time. That's crazy. Ew and some of the things people be lookin' for on the net... hahaha that's... eh. No comment.
Jason helped me wash my car today. That thing was looking really really bad but now it's nice and shiny. With my luck it will probably rain tomorrow but oh well. At least I got that blackish gunk off my trunk. Nah it's not gunk. It's more like.. settled dirt. It's a good thing my car already has sealant on it so I don't have to wax or anything.
Moving on to a less meaningless subject. I went to VONS today to pick up some Always with wings. I just about had a heart attack this morning because I thought I had run out. Luckily there was one left in the bag. *whew* That would have been a disaster. So anyways, I'm walking up and down the aisles of the supermarket clutching a package of supersized maxi pads. I remembered I'm all out of shaving cream so I picked up a can of raspberry scented Skintimate shaving cream. I am rapidly walking towards the register with sanitary pads in one arm and shaving cream in the other. *Hurry Mae, get to the damn counter so you can stuff these things in a plastic bag already* JUST MY LUCK. "Hey Mae" Ooohhh shit.... that voice sounds familiar. I turn around. Ooohhh shit again. Hi Rob. [Rob is this fucking fine ass filipino/black guy that used to go out with one of my friends] He started to jokingly make fun of my feminine items. Damn he has a nice smile. "Umm well Rob I want to save myself from further humiliation so I better go pay for these now." He laughed at me again and we said bye. Why why why do I always see someone I know when I'm in an awkward situation?
Is it me or is Christina losing her voice? When I watched her on VH1's MEN STRIKE BACK she was kickin ass on the mic. But when I heard her on the Latin Grammys and on Leno her voice was like... whack. Same thing happened to Mariah Carey and is also slowly happening to Whitney Houston. But it's happening to Christina way too early in her career. She needs to chill out and not sing so .. out of her range all the time. Of course she can hit the notes, but it's not normal singing. Her voice is her job! Without it, she's nothing!
Umm.. anyways. It's weird without my dad here. It's so quiet around the house. I wish my mom went with him. Hehe.. I'm bad I know I know. But then if my mom went I'd have to buy groceries and dinner and stuff for me and my brother with my own money. It's kinda fun though.. I feel like I'm living on my own. I will be living on my own real soon though! Ack I can't wait.
My ex called me today [the four year one]. He told me that his new girl is jealous of me because he always talks about me. He said that she gets mad whenever she sees a silver civic because he looks to see if it's me. He said they had a big fight once because he told her that I'm "his everything". His words were very heart felt. It made me sad. He wanted to see me but I didn't want to see him because then he'd start acting like we're together again. God I swear he acts like it was a marriage or something... well it did pretty much feel like a marriage.
Ok I'm going now.. maybe I'll write more later. Bye.
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current time is 3:44:06 PM
listening to >>> "perfect man" by destiny's child
Earlier today blogger was acting like a punk bitch and wouldn't upload my entry so sorry it's delayed like a couple hours. Anyway, I got an oil change today finally! Jason's such a sweetie. When he got off of school we went to the MCAS Miramar so we could use their car jacker upper thingie. Instead of having to crawl underneath my car, we put it on a ramp and had the whole car lifted. He's so sweet OMG he even bought the oil and filter for me. *sigh* It's too bad I'm not emotionally attracted to him because he'd make a hell of a boyfriend.
He went home to get showered and stuff and I'm online looking at some body kits. I think I know what I want now. I'm gonna have to mix and match sides and bumpers though and that will cost more than just getting one full kit but oh well. Money money money. Something I don't have but I spend so much of it. Blah.
Well I don't care if there's rain in the forecast, I'm going to wash my car because it's straight nasty looking. Even when I tried rinsing off the dirt it wouldn't come off! Ack. Ok talk to you later. Bye.
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current time is 11:42:55 AM
listening to >>> "after the love has gone" by earth, wind and fire
Ok, first my monitor turned solid lime green, and now this monitor [my bro's] turned purple. It's not completely purple thank GOD but the purple tint is hurting my eyes. I lost the red and cyan pigmentation in my monitor leaving only green and it seems the green pigmentation in this monitor is gone. Ack! Just my luck. Too bad I can't take the green from my monitor and put in this one or vice versa. Hehe I'm rambling sorry.
Well I went to that interview this morning. It went very well.. although I'm not too sure if I'll like working there or not. I didn't get the job yet, they want to schedule me for a second interview with the president or something like that. If I do end up working there it looks like I won't have much time to go online and chat all day like I used to. DAMN! Haha... that sucks. Oh well it's about time I complete an honest day's work anyway. It's kinda like a win-win situation. If I get the job, cool I'm happy. If I don't, it's all good. The recruiter will find me another one.
Hmm.. what should I do today? I should really get off my lazy bum and change my oil. That's the thing though. I'm a lazy bum. I have this coupon for a ten dollar "hassle free" oil change but I don't wanna take my car down there and wait for them to finish it. Ugh what a waste of time. Jason's at school so he can't pick me up or anything. Hmm. I'll call them and ask how long it's gonna take. Man.. you know what I'm probably gonna end up changing it myself.
Damnit. My battery in my cell died right when Jason called. Go figure.
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current time is 2:29:04 AM
listening to >>> "contigo en la distancia" by christina aguilera
This song is off of her Mi Reflejo album. It's muy bonita. I can't sleep. It's 1:30 am. I took a long nap earlier today so I'm wide awake. I laid down on my bed and stared at the ceiling for a while thinking about stuff. I must have looked like a lunatic cuz I kept saying to myself "take it at face value. take it at face value." Well I'm trying my hardest to do just that. But who am I kidding? I can't change the way I am. I am always going to pick things apart in my mind and analyze it.
The movie Selena is on TNT right now. The part at the end where her family is crying.. it always makes me sad each and every time I watch this movie. [20 minutes later...] Oh oops. I totally forgot I was writing this blog. Well the movie is over and of course I got sad again at the part I mentioned. I didn't cry though. Since it's based on a true story I could really feel their pain even if it was just through the actors portraying them.
Why is it that there's never anything on TV late Sunday night? I'm sure there are lots of people who can't sleep, so why not put some real shows on besides those annoying infomercials. And why is it that whenever I'm dying to know what a show's title is, when I switch the the TV Guide channel I had just missed that station? It's a conspiracy I tell you. Oh Lord I'm starting to sound like my grandfather. Heh, no offense to anyone or anything, but my grandpops seems to think everything bad in this world is because of the Jews. Eh? I dunno.
Oh cool! Horsepower TV is on TNN right now. Last time they installed a JRSC [Jackson Racing SuperCharger] in a civic. I think it was an Si? I doubt they're gonna show anymore import cars since it's pretty much a hick show but I'll leave it on anyway. They're working on a mustang right now. Heh. Go figure. Americans make cars with so much power off the line but why can't they make them look nicer? I dunno, it's just my opinion but domestics are freakin' ugly.
Good Lawd I need an oil change.
The Import Showoff is this coming weekend. It's in Del Mar so I could go if I wanted to. I'm only going if Jason's getting me in for free. I do not feel like paying I dunno.. how much is it? But I know it's over ten bucks to get in. Hah! I can fill up my gas tank with ten bucks. I would definitely go if it were like five bucks or something. I hate to sound like a typical female but I just don't wanna pay to see a bunch of hoochies "models" sprawled all over the cars. It's like, girl get out of my way you're blocking my view of the car.
Holy shit it's 2:30 am. Man... I better get some sleep. Goodnight.
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current time is 12:24:45 AM
listening to >>> nothing. the sound of IMs attacking me
Sorry that I don't have much to say tonight. I'll do an entry tomorrow. Goodnight.
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current time is 8:26:26 PM
listening to >>> "freakin' you" by jodeci
WTF?! I was checking my counter referral stats and I got a hit from the Yahoo search engine. No big deal right? Na uh! The person searched "sexy collage girls" [they obviously couldn't spell college correctly] and sure enough my page was like number 4 or 5 on the list. HAHA! It had part of one of my old blogs as the description. That is extremely odd considering it brought my page up out of millions and millions of other webpages that have the word girl in it. Man that's crazy. Well I just got out of the shower and I'm still in my underwear [yes Lee, I said UNDERWEAR] So anyways.. talk to you laters before I go to sleep. Bye!
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current time is 12:35:23 PM
listening to >>> "anytime" by the jets
A couple people have added me to their compatibility test! According to the test I'm a "dreamer". I'm not too sure what that means but at the end it basically told me that other people think I'm a loser! Haha! My suspicions are confirmed! ... how sad.. ? Hahaha anyways. I woke up with a painful feeling in my abdomen. I slowly came to my senses and realized... awwww man cramps! I know most of you get uneasy when you hear about a girl's period but so what. I'm gonna talk about my period. Heheh. I hate it! Damn why couldn't I have gotten it when I was staying home all day last week. I was a few days late this time around so I was getting a bit worried. So in actuality, getting my period is bittersweet.
Well it's Sunday afternoon and I have the sudden urge to go out and spend some money. I was hoping to take advantage of the time that my dad was gone so I could work under my hood without him bitching about every little thing I'm doing. Heheh.. no I'm not gonna do the work myself. Are you crazy?! I don't trust myself yet. I still have a lot of learning to do. But you know I really hate that my dad acts as if it's his car. I would understand if he bought it for me, but nope. He didn't pay for one cent of it. My car was made possible by my own hard earned money. That's why I can't wait to move out so I can finally do as I please with my own belongings. Blah.
Alright I don't have much to say yet so I'll write more later when the day is over.
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current time is 2:00:06 AM
listening to >>> "with me" by destiny's child
I went to Jason's house earlier and stayed for about five minutes. That's five minutes less time than it took me to get there. Jason lives in Rancho Penasquitos and it usually takes me ten minutes if I take the freeway. Remember how I was planning on treating him out as a nice gesture? Well he's still in a rotten mood and didn't feel like going out with me. I don't know what's wrong with him. He wasn't even dressed up to go anywhere like he usually is on weekends. He was wearing the typical guy ensemble. White t-shirt and basketball shorts. I mean he's not even going out with his friends. That's odd, he always goes out with his friends if he's not with me. Ugh. He's acting like a little bitch and it's such a turn off.
I tried to go to sleep when I got home from his house but of course I couldn't. What else is there to turn to besides my beloved computer? Heheh. Lame. It's kinda lonely tonight. No one's online. Oh yeah I forgot, people have lives. There was a party or some kind of get together down the street from me. I was on my way home and all sorts of hondas were lined up blocking the road. Umm.. get out of my way. "Hey sup Mae!" [It was my neighbor] .. Oh hi.. [struggling to remember his name].. "well we're just chillin' inside. you should come by when you got time aight?" Umm.. ok [thinking, no thanks]. I looked in my rear view mirror as I proceeded towards my house. Hey that guy in the blue Si looked pretty cute. Heheh. But nah.. not my type. He has the "I'm a typical asian" look to him that doesn't really impress me.
Hey wanna see if you're compatible with me? Take this personality quiz, and then when you get the end, enter my email address [mae@phayze1.com] in those little boxes and see how compatible we are. So far my highest compatibility percentage is my friend from Anaheim. Oh wait, actually he an Ryan are tied for the highest at 89%. Anaheim guy told me that he and this one girl are like 100% compatible and I was thinkin like.... err whatever. *rolls eyes* Haha.. anyways. You know what I'm gonna start using smilies in my blogs. *this thing* isn't as effective as a real smiley face.
But anyways. I'm gonna go now. Bye.
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