current time is 11:14:15 PM
Like whoa... the new Miss America is filipina. She even shares the same name as me! Her name is Angela Perez Baraquio. She was actually Miss Hawaii. I think that's really cool! The contestants this year were pretty fugly though. Hawaii was pretty though, she had that Hawaii-esque look about her. Very tropical.
I'm downloading some old school slow jams off of Napster right now. Right now I'm downloading "I Miss You" by Klymaxx. Can we BE anymore sad? That song I must say is the ultimate we-broke-up-and-i-miss-you song. Duh the title says it all. Hehe you're like DAMN MAE if you're so freakin' sad that stop freakin' listening to so many freakin' sad slow jams. I know I know.
Thanks for all the support emails I've received since I posted that last entry. I'm surprised at all the new people who have come forward and admitted to being a visitor! Haha jp. It's so cool when people say things like "I've been a visitor for a while" or "I read your blog everyday".... that's so sweet guys. I swear, if I never got feedback like that I wouldn't even pay twenty bucks a month for webspace just to post my thoughts on the web. You know what else is cool? In the two years that I've had a webpage I've never once had a disrespectful guestbook entry or basher or any kind of haters. Why? Because only the COOL people visit me!!!! Hahahah... ok watch I'll get a hater as soon as some bored person reads this.
Well I guess you can tell I'm in a better mood. You know what I realized is the best cure for my sadness? Company. Other people. Even though I feel the need to be alone sometimes, what I really need is just someone to keep me company. That is exactly why I value Jason's friendship so much. He knew exactly what I needed even though I was too stubborn and had too much pride to admit it. In the midst of my shitty mood he came over unannounced [which if under normal circumstances, I woulda bitched about] with a sweet "cheer up" hallmark card. He is the sweetest most thoughtful guy I've ever met. Even though we haven't even known each other that long, we've spent so much time together already that we're so close. I can safely say that if I were to hook up with him, he would do everything in his power to keep me from being hurt. There's just something in the way of that though. I don't feel that spark. I can only see him as my friend.
It's too bad this certain *person* doesn't view me as Jason does. I guess you can't have everything you want huh?
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current time is 7:37:04 PM
I thought I'd cheer myself up by popping in my Wedding Singer video. I love that movie. I crack up abnormally at almost every part. I was fine until the sweet parts came. Then I started to realize how lonely I was and how unhappy I was in my past relationship. I know I'm young and I know I have much to learn about love and relationships, but I do know that the next guy is definitely going to be Mr. Right and not Mr. Right Now. If after a reasonable amount of time I don't feel that way then I'm just going to kick him to the curb. I have no time and patience for someone who is not ready for a serious relationship.
I guess it's about that time for me to tell you what happened at work. Well, as of Friday, October 13th, Motiva Software Corporation has ceased operations. In other words, the business closed down. Translation: I'm out of a job. I will miss all my coworkers terribly. We all found out the news at around 3 in the afternoon. We were told to pack up all our belongings as the building will be sealed off that evening. I walked over to my office, closed the door and sat with my head down for a few minutes. Then I went in search of a box to put all my stuff in. I saw Kelley, one of my gals. She gave me that look and went up to me to give me a hug. I could tell that if we exchanged any words at all that we would've both started to cry. So I quickly walked away. I didn't want to talk to anyone because I am so bad at goodbyes. I turned in my pass card, put my box in the trunk of my car and drove home from Del Mar for the last time.
There are many repercussions to this untimely event. For one, I do not have anymore health insurance. I have no medical, dental, or vision insurance anymore. I have to start anew with a whole different company and prove to them that even at my young age I am still very responsible and have acquired many skills in my short working experience. I also am not sure of any other place that will pay me as much as Motiva did. I have to find a job that will allow me to cover my monthly car and insurance payments along with my other bills. Lastly, I wasn't able to use up my paid time off, meaning I will NOT be reimbursed for those hours that I've saved up. If I had quit prior to the closing, then I would have been paid. But since the company is trying to avoid bankruptcy as much as possible, paying off all employees' PTO is not an option.
I don't even want to get into all the irony of this. All this time I've been talking about how much I dislike my job. I probably jinxed myself like I always do. Another weird thing was that I asked to get off work at 3:30 on Friday...and sure enough I left at 3:30, but it was for good.
So now starts the job hunting process. I can easily find work through a temp agency, which I have done before. I am confident that I will find a job, however I'm not confident that my new job will be like my last one. How many jobs can you find surfing the net and blogging all day? Heh.. sorry I needed to lighten up this entry somehow. In a way I am looking forward to the time off that I'll have. *sigh* I'm still sad though.
So that's what the heck was up my ass for the past day. Bye now.
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current time is 1:04:00 PM
*sigh* ...i'm so sad. I didn't want to get up out of bed this morning. I finally dragged myself out at noon when Jason called. He wanted to go out but right now I just want to be alone. My aunt and sister are here from LA but I haven't gone out in the kitchen to say hi to them yet. I'm a wreck right now. There's only one person I want to talk to right now but he's not home. He is really all that's kept me happy these past couple months. I bet he doesn't even know it. I want someone who doesn't want me. Go fig.
I'm sorry everyone, I'm pretty sure my next few entries are going to be pretty lame. My blogs are definitely going to be different from now on. The scenery which you are used to me describing is going to change. For better? For worse? I don't know but I'm starting to sound like a wedding vow.
I'm going to put something in my stomach now. I haven't had anything to eat since lunch yesterday, and it's past lunch time right now. Bye.
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current time is 11:35:32 PM
Ohh kay... I just got home. I got home earlier than I thought I would. It's ok though, he has work early tomorrow morning and he still has a long drive ahead of him. Anyway.. something happened at work today that I am just now starting to get upset about. I'm not in the right mind state to say what it is. I'm getting extremely emotional right now. When it happened earlier, it didn't sink in right away. Now it has and I'm devastated. It's taking everything in me to hold back the tears... and now that I've just typed that phrase...here they are. So what could have possibly happened that I need to cry about it? I'll tell you some day.
I was quiet during the drive home. So many things were running through my mind. What am I gonna do now? What in God's name am I going to do now...
I can't think right now. I just need to bury my head in my pillow and have a good cry. Yeah.. that's what I need.
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current time is 1:12:03 PM
I just got back from lunch. Jason didn't have any classes today so he dropped by my office to take me out. We ate at McDonald's because we were both short on cash. Hehe, see it's not a date when I pay for myself and he pays for himself so shove it guys. >=) I had a 6 piece meal and he had freakin' 2 cajun chicken sandwiches and supersized fries. He finished before I did too! I was barely finished with my fourth nugget and he was finished with all his food. He's pretty slim too. Talk about high metabolism.
Last night when I ate with my relatives dinner was kinda weird. My whole family with the exception of myself, my bro and my local cousin was telling dirty jokes the whole night! Dirty meaning penises and vaginas were involved. Bleh! I was like Hello I'm trying to eat here! Can you imagine listening to your own DAD telling a dirty joke?? Ew. They were talking and laughing pretty loud too. Some of the jokes even had sound effects!! Good Lord it was embarrassing.
I have a feeling I might not be able to leave right at 3:30 today. There's this mandatory sales conference call and I think they're gonna need assistance in one way or another. Hopefully my boss will have mercy on me and let me go anyway. *sigh* Let's all cross our fingers.
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current time is 9:08:43 AM
OoOoooOOoo.. Friday the 13th. I almost forgot to mail my car payment again. It wasn't until I opened up blogger and saw my last entry that I remembered. Damnit I have such a bad memory. My bad memory has really gotten me into some deep shit in the past. School, work, with my parents, BOYFRIENDS.
But anyways. I'm going to see *someone* tonight. I lied to my parents and told then I was going to Frightmare on Market Street with my coworkers. [the seasonal haunted house over here in SD].. It was the only way they'd let me stay out without bugging me. They wanted me to go with them to my cousin's concert and I would have gone if one of my cousins was going but he didn't want to either so I passed. I'd rather do *nothing*.
I'm getting off work at 3:30 today. I have to finish running those errands I talked about a couple days ago. I should have asked for the whole day off. Hehe... but I hope I can really get off at 3:30 because you never know, our CEO is here today and they might need me to stay and work. Blah! If they made me stay then ooohhh that gives me reason #2498721 why I hate my job.
*yaaaawwwwwn* Oh my eyes are all watery now. Ok worky time bye!
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current time is 7:44:48 PM
Shit shit shit! I forgot to mail my fucking car payment today. I'll have to mail it tomorrow and hope that someone receives it on Saturday or that they'll at least be lenient on me since the due date falls on a weekend. Ack! I so hate myself right now. I swear I can be so forgetful sometimes and then it comes back to fuck me in the ass. I didn't even remember until my mom nagged me about it. For once her nagging does some good.
I hope I don't have to go out to eat with my relatives again. I'm so full. Jason and I ate at Alejandro's [formerly known as Alberto's] and I barely finished my carne asada burrito. I stopped by his house earlier to pick up my jacket and then went to eat. It's jacket season! I don't really like the cold weather but it's ok because I get to wear my leather jacket again. Hehe. My jacket smells like him now. I wonder what he was doing with my jacket...?? HAHA just kidding.
My hair is sooo burgundy. I meant to dye it dark burgundy but I guess I left the dye in too long. I didn't notice it this morning but when I looked at it in the light OMG my hair is red! I kinda like the color though. Definitely noticeable.
I'm gonna get a Nokia phone and give my mom my samsung. The reception on Nokias is so freakin' clear it sounds like a regular house phone! I want one! The reception on my samsung sucks ass. I'm still debating whether I want to choose the 1000 free weekend minutes or the free long distance and unlimited mobile to mobile.. Hmm... I don't think I'll use up that 1000 minutes so I'll probably choose the free long distance one.
Doh! I gotta get ready because I'm going to fashion valley with my relatives. *how fun*
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current time is 2:40:37 PM
Wow I got some work done today. Not a whole lot, but more than the past three days combined. This week has been completely unproductive for me. I literally sat here the whole eight hours surfing the net and chatting on AIM. I don't know why I haven't been motivated to do anything. Well I haven't had much to do lately anyway. The suits haven't been in the office the whole week so running around like headless chickens wasn't necessary. I wish I had something to do though. When I'm bored the day goes by so slowly.
My computer is getting into the habit of freezing every hour or so. Literally. Not even every hour, more like every half hour. Then when I restart, the WINDOWS98 screen gets stuck for five minutes straight and then it proceeds to start up. I can't do anything about it right now because our sole tech guy decided to take a week off of work without even notifying me.
Ok that's all I have to say right now.
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current time is 9:30:15 AM
Oh! This is my big fact of the week: Did you know that Pepsi discontinued Lemon Lime Slice and renamed it Sierra Mist? It's basically the same drink but with different name and clothes. Trust me it's true, I ordered a couple of cases for the company a few days ago. =)
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current time is 8:49:37 AM
Last night I went out to eat with my relatives. There were so many of us. We had to take three cars even though my freakin' cousin has a new Lincon Navigator! That thing is huge! I looked inside and there's three rows of seats so it can hold eight people I think. Good Lawd. My dad also took his Camry and I took my car. I didn't mind driving since we ate in Mira Mesa and plus I didn't want to go with them to the hotel afterwards. I had a Chicken Caeser Salad that seemed like it didn't have an ending. I kept eating and eating it but it didn't seem to be going away. I only ate half of it. I'm still full from last night!
Everyone kept asking me "Where's Jerry? Why didn't you bring him?" Umm. No comment. I didn't know what to say.. I didn't think it was appropriate to be talking about our messy break up in front of everyone. Even saying that we "broke up" alone would still be weird to me. So I just said "hmm I dunno". So anyways we were hanging around in the lobby waiting to be seated and my cousin [who's my age] asked me if I was still with my ex. I said no.. and then out of nowhere my brother blurted out "she's talking to five guys! one in pq, one in anaheim, blah blah blah".. I looked at him and was like HUH? You're trippin boy. That is so not true so I don't know why he said that. He was probably just trying to make conversation.
I didn't get to sleep until around 2:30am or so. I was online talking to *someone* for a while and then we both signed off and talked on the phone for a bit. It was freezing last night! My window was just cracked open to let some fresh air through and good lord I was shivering the whole night. It was so hard to wake up this morning cuz I didn't want to let go of my blanket. I need to get a warmer blanket before I get sick again. Being sick sucks!
I don't know how long you've been reading my journal entries but a year ago my grandpa died of lung cancer. He was 80 years old already so he lived a full life. He lived in the Philippines by the way. Anyways, during dinner my cousins were talking about my grandpa always "visiting" them. You know, like haunting them? They said once the electric fan kept turning off and unplugging by itself. It wasn't loose or anything either. It did that about four times. Another time they were going down a flight of stairs and they saw an arm in the mirror of the floor above them. They went to see if someone was up there and everything was locked up so nobody could have been up there. Then they were talking about who it could have been.. and they said it was an old man's arm. My cousin said "maybe it's grandpa" and then all of a sudden all the lights turned off!! Holy shit that's freaky! I was getting chills thinking about it. Now I really do believe in spirits. Ack right around halloween too.
Well I'm gonna go here now so talk to you later!
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current time is 1:18:14 PM
I was eating lunch in the break room reading my Super Street and my co-worker goes.. "what are you reading?" Umm Super Street. "what's that a car magazine?" Uh huh. "why are you reading a car magazine? young women in their early 20s should read cosmo or madamoiselle." Heh. I'm not in my early 20s. I'm in my late teens. I'm 18. And I dunno, I enjoy learning about this stuff. "you're only 18?! i didn't know that." well now you know. Haha... I feel so "mature". Puahah! Yeah right. I take care of my business and that's about as mature as I am. I'm still a little kid inside.
I have so much to do tonight but I'm not sure if I'll be able to since my relatives are in town. My dad gets really anal when I don't spend time with the family. He starts to mutter stupid stuff like "oh so you're family's not good enough for you?! you have more important things to do than spend time with your cousins?" Geez dad lighten up. My dad only has two personalities. The really kiddish and lenient side of him, and the completely irrational asshole side of him. He's hardly ever the latter, but when he is, oh man I don't even want to be in the same room as him. But out of my mom, bro and sis, I'm the only one who can talk back to him without him getting even more mad. I'll tell him exactly why he's wrong and why I'm right and he'll shut up. But if anyone else were to do that he'd freakin' go crazy. This one time my sister pissed him off badly and he went into her room, grabbed all the clothes out of the her closet, threw them out in the living room and told her that if she wasn't gonna respect him then she should get the hell out. He could never do that to me though. He'll stay pissed off at me for a few hours and then I'm back to being daddy's little girl. My mom hates it when I get my way with him because she thinks that he's too lenient on me. Hehe... yep. >=)
Jason just called me from school. He's funny cuz this girl in his class likes him and he was all clownin her. Then he goes "oh shit.. " and I'm all what happened? "when i was in the middle of tellin you how broke she is she passed right by me". HAHAHA! I was laughing my ass off when he said that. Silly guy.
But anyways time to get back to "work" now. Bye!
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current time is 9:45:38 AM
My feet are freezing!
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current time is 9:34:13 AM
Wow I woke up early today for a change. Well not early, but at least I wasn't late for work. I was talking to my prey friend Kevin last night until about 1am. Hehe. He lives up in the bay area and goes to San Jose State University. Smart guy huh? He's in his junior year I think. But anyways yeah, we had an interesting conversation. Among other people whom I spoke with are Gerard [GAG! Hahahahaha] and Anaheim guy. Just the regulars. No one special. Haha! Just kidding boys.
My co-workers want me to go with them to Frightmare on Market Street next Friday. Ehh.. I dunno about hanging out with them because then I'll just be reminded of work. Kelley's like "no excuses mae! you have to come with us!" So I made up an excuse.. I'm all "uhh I dunno because that's my four year anniversary." Haha so I lied. It's kinda true since it is in fact my four year anniversary but it isn't true because I'm not even with him anymore.
Haha! My co-worker came up to me and asked me how to make a stamp with the postage meter. He said it kept doing an error then I said "are you putting it in the right hole?" We both looked at each other like.. uhhhh that didn't sound right. Haha he had a sense of humor about it though.
Anyway sorry for the lame entry but I gotta go now. Talk more laters. Bye!
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current time is 9:33:54 AM
Wow I woke up early today for a change. Well not early, but at least I wasn't late for work. I was talking to my prey friend Kevin last night until about 1am. Hehe. He lives up in the bay area and goes to San Jose State University. Smart guy huh? He's in his junior year I think. But anyways yeah, we had an interesting conversation. Among other people whom I spoke with are Gerard [GAG! Hahahahaha] and Anaheim guy. Just the regulars. No one special. Haha! Just kidding boys.
My co-workers want me to go with them to Frightmare on Market Street next Friday. Ehh.. I dunno about hanging out with them because then I'll just be reminded of work. Kelley's like "no excuses mae! you have to come with us!" So I made up an excuse.. I'm all "uhh I dunno because that's my four year anniversary." Haha so I lied. It's kinda true since it is in fact my four year anniversary but it isn't true because I'm not even with him anymore.
Haha! My co-worker came up to me and asked me how to make a stamp with the postage meter. He said it kept doing an error then I said "are you putting it in the right hole?" We both looked at each other like.. uhhhh that didn't sound right. Haha he had a sense of humor about it though.
Anyway sorry for the lame entry but I gotta go now. Talk more laters. Bye!
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current time is 10:38:07 PM
My relatives from the Philippines are here in San Diego. They're staying at a hotel though because my cousin has a concert here and that's where the sponsors booked them. Hey Matt, Jolina is gonna be at my house tomorrow and Thursday. Hehe. I know you wanna come over.
I spent thirty bucks at SavOn today. I bought the November issue of Super Street [$3.99], Feria Hair Dye [$7.99], Wet N Wild lipstick [$1.99], Wet N Wild lipliner [$0.59], Loreal Compact [$8.63], and Gillette 5pack of razors [$4.19]. Tax was $2.12 so the total comes to $29.50 paid for by my trusty VISA. Doh! I freakin' spend too much money dude. I get paid this Friday too. Gawd I'm so bad with money.
Jason apologized for being a lamer last night. I said "yeah you were pretty lame last night" Haha... he laughed so we're on good terms again. We talked about our feelings for each other and he finally told me that he kinda liked me. I told him that he's a good friend but I wasn't ready to get attached again. And contrary to popular opinion, he's not my type. He's a smooth talker. He can get any girl he wants and I wouldn't want that to always be in the back of my mind if I did hook up with him. I can't picture him as someone more than just a good buddy.
I'm sooo craving a smoothie right now.
Doop do doo... I'm bored. It's 10:35. Is Jamba Juice open? I doubt it. Darn.
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current time is 9:30:38 AM
Drama seems to find me no matter where I go I freakin' swear. OK, I am NOT with Jason. He is not, never has been, and never will be [at the rate he's going] my boyfriend! He calls my cell incessantly wondering where I am and who I'm with. HELLO?! Did you try calling my house dumb ass? I'm freakin' at home. I got enough of that shit from my past relationship and I sooo don't want anymore of it. Last night he calls me and he's like.. "how come you didn't come over after work?" Oh uhh I didn't know you were a permanent part of my schedule. I said that jokingly and he took it all serious so he's like "so i'm nothing to you?" ... HUH? What are you talking about Jason. "oh so i'm Jason now? what happened to 'hun'" ... umm I call everyone HUN, even girls. "so i'm just like everyone else to you then" Umm Jason it's getting late and I gotta get some rest now. "whatever then. late" and he hung up on me. Ack! I don't feel like being his friend anymore after that episode.
[09:51 am] ... Anyways. I hate when people turn right into my lane when I'm freakin' 10 feet away from the intersection. I especially hate it when there's not even anyone behind me. Can't they wait ten seconds for me to pass? This happens to me a lot in my neighborhood so what I do is I tailgate their ass and flash my high beams on them until they're forced to speed up and avoid me. Muah hah hah. I'm evil.
I hate being stuck behind weaklings who can't cross an intersection because they're too scared. Then they try to pass, but when they see a car coming they stop in the middle of the intersection and/or try to back up. You're already blocking the freakin' road, just go through already! Kristine is right, I sooo can't live in LA.
While we're on the subject of things I hate most, let me add more. I hate people who block the right hand side of the road at a red light so that I can't pass them to make a right turn. I hate when people switch four lanes at one time on the freeway. Who the hell do you think you are? Black Rob? That's just plain reckless driving and I soo don't condone it. Street racing kills innocent people dumb asses!
I hate when I'm at a stoplight and a guy revs on me. My car is freakin' bone stock so I don't know why these fools wanna race a GIRL in a STOCK civic that's not even lowered or anything. What pussies. I hate when their windows are rolled down and their music is so freakin' loud that I can barely even hear what's on my radio. I hate when some fobby ass rice boy is hangin outside the passenger window of his friend's ricey ass 4th gen civic and tries to hit up on girls who are in other cars on the road. I hate when an angry bee on steroids with a duct taped body kit and an aluminum wing that is wider than the car itself goes flying down the street. I think they honestly think their ride is dope or something. Hmm... how sad.
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current time is 10:41:44 PM
It's 10:31 pm. I'm not looking forward to work tomorrow. There's going to be a board meeting and I'm going to have to play waitress again. Today I had to make two trips to the deli because they failed to give me proper instructions. First of all, it is NOT in my job description to go fetch lunch for them. Second of all, it is NOT in my job description to cough up my own money to pay for their damn lunch [money which I'll be reimbursed for, but still], and third of all it is NOT in my job description to be driving around running errands and putting mileage on MY car. To top it all off I didn't even get to take a decent lunch break. I only had time to heat up my hot pocket, burn my damn tongue, all in a matter of 10 minutes. Ack. Well I'm not in the mood to type anymore so I'll write more in the morning.. bye!
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current time is 9:10:22 AM
I woke up ten minutes late and still got to work five minutes early. The commute was a bit weird. I usually take this long open road that I tend to go 65-75MPH on, however today there was a cop on the road the whole freakin' time I was there too. I had to watch my speed even though there were virtually NO cars ahead of me and if that cop wasn't there I'd be zooming right on by. He finally turned left and I was able to take advantage of the empty road. It's still weird that I got to work early.
Today is supposed to be a hectic day according to my schedule. So far nothing has happened yet. Not that I'm looking forward to it or anything. I was dreaming of body kits all night long for some reason. Even about body kits that aren't even for my car. Eh? It's because I had been looking at all these pictures of body kits right before I went to sleep. I dunno man. The one I really like is too expensive. I'm probably just gonna end up buying the OEM kit. It's simple I know, but that's what I want.
Oh cool. My boss just walked in and I asked her what today's lookin' like and she said the meetings were going to be off site instead. Yessss. We're all jumpin' for joy. Hehe. Ok now I can relax. I was uptight this morning because I was expecting a horrible day ahead of me. I even wore flats because I expected to be doing a lot of running around.
It's been so gloomy outside lately. I can't believe I'm saying this but I actually miss the sun. Hell I haven't even used the a/c in my car for a couple weeks! At least I'm saving gas. My tank has remained half full for a week already. Coolness. I have to cherish my smooth ride while I can because as soon as my car is lowered with 17s... man my butt's gonna be numb from the bumpy ride. That can all be fixed with some new shocks though. I'll get them later on.. maybe in a few months or so.
*yawn* I went to sleep around 3am. I kept waking up in the middle of the night because I was freezing my ass off and my blanket kept coming off. Oh shit. Damn I remembered to take my advil home for the weekend and now I forgot to bring it back to work. Ack. I am so bad at remembering things.
Jason kept calling my cell last night. I didn't answer my phone though because I was preoccupied with something on the computer. I was getting so annoyed because he called about five times in a row. Finally I got up and turned off the ringer. Then he leaves a voicemail: "sup girl, are you sleeping? it's only 12. i know you're up. call me when you get this message. late" Late? Early? On time? Haha.. "late" is soooo junior high. I didn't feel like talking on the phone so I just paged him goodnight. I just didn't want him to feel dissed.
Did you know that Friday is the 13th? And it's going to be a full moon too. Eek. How appropriate. I asked *someone* to come over but the plans aren't definite yet. If all else fails and I don't feel like staying home I can always count on Jason to pick me up and take me somewhere. Even if he's out and about he'll come by to pick me up. Why? Because he's just nice to me like that. =)
Worky time. Bye.
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current time is 6:58:24 PM
6:27 pm. My wrists still feel like they're going to fall off even though I've only been on the computer for half an hour. I have a lavender candle lit in my bathroom. The wax started to fill up so I blew out the flame and dumped the wax in the sink. Sooo not a good idea. The wax hardened around the drain and I had to scrape it off. Ick. At least my bathroom smells good. Lavender is also the scent of my conditioner. Yum.
My dad is going to shampoo the carpet tonight. That means I have to clean my room. No for heaven's sake no. I so don't want my dad browsing around my room while I'm at home too. I'm certain he'll make dumb ass comments about something--anything he finds in my room. I get so paranoid anytime someone other than myself is in my room. My room is my sanctuary. I keep all these private documents and what not lying around.
Ugh. Boys are so confusing.
*sigh*
I can't believe it's already Sunday. This weekend went by too quickly. I don't know why but I am in a really weird mood. Nothing happened to cause it. But if anyone were to piss me off right now all hell would break loose. Maybe it's because I've been home all day in the presence of my ever-so-nagging mom. Or maybe it's because I haven't had anything to eat today except a hot pocket.
Next year I am moving out. As soon as I get my raise in January I'm going apartment hunting. Of course I won't be able to live by myself, but my salary is high enough so that I can afford to pay rent and utility bills. I already have some furniture since everything in my room right now was paid for by myself. I have a computer, a TV, a sound system, a desk, a bed, blah blah blah. Call me young and ignorant if you want but I seriously do not want to live with my parents longer than I have to. I may not act like it sometimes but I am a responsible adult and it's about time I was treated like one. Even when my sister was 25 and living here, she was still treated like a child and I do not want to go through this for another 6 years. I know my parents are gonna shit in their pants when I break the news but I'm sorry. I'm an adult and I am old enough to make decisions for myself. Projected move date: March-April 2001. Wish me luck.
First thing I have to do is find a roommate. I'm not too keen on the idea of living with a stranger, but I'm also not too keen on the idea of living with a female. When I lived with my sister I could barely stand being in the same room as her. I know that if my parents find out I'm living with a guy, they'll probably disown me. When my sister moved in with her gay friend they still had a cow over it. Ugh they're so old fashioned.
I better start cleaning my room before my dad gets home. I don't need anymore anxiety for one night. Bye.
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current time is 3:04:40 PM
Is it possible to die of boredom?
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current time is 12:59:12 PM
Doop do dooo... if you haven't noticed I posted my archives up. They only go as far as I've had blogger so the ancient entries are long gone. Kinda sucks because I like going through my past entries and reading about what happened to me that particular day. [Wow I just went to my old scribble journal and my old entries are still there! Eek I have to post them too. Hehe].. Last night I was up until 4am reading through my old entries and thinking... damn I've changed a lot in such a short time. Back in July I was always so happy and cheery in my entries and now I'm always in a bad mood and cursing every other word. It's probably the post break-up thang. It's funny though because I don't feel any different. Hmm... I dunno. Well I'm gonna go read through my scribble journal and them I'm gonna post them. Talk to you laters!
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current time is 1:40:17 AM
OMG after all the ranting and raving I do about people who don't know how to spell, Jhoana is nice enough to point out to me that I freakin' spelled EXPLORER wrong on my own splash! Thanks girl!
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current time is 12:14:57 AM
11:49 pm and I'm home now. Jason and I didn't rent a movie. We just watched TV for a couple hours and talked about random stuff. I figured I'd at least give you guys a decent entry because my last two were pretty lame. Even though my wrists are freakin' sore and my "carpal tunnel syndrome" is acting up, I'll give you the best I've got.
Oh how rude of me, I didn't tell you how it went with Jason Friday night. We had dinner at The Old Spaghetti Factory in downtown. That place is freakin' scary. It looks like an old abandoned house. I'd hate to work there and have to close at night. I was about to whip out my credit card but as expected he stuffed it back into my purse and pulled out his. The bill came out to about 40 bucks so inside my head I was saying "whew thank GOD I don't have to pay". Haha I'm horrible I know. When we got back into the car I handed him his gift which was a bottle of Curve for men. I'm not too fond of that scent [I like NAUTICA.. *hint hint* hehe] but I remember him mentioning beforehand that he was running out of Curve or something. I asked where we were going next and he suggested Mt. Soledad. I said uhhh no thanks. That's like the foggy windows area of San Diego, if ya know what I mean. Why don't we go to Seaport Village? Ehhh.. all there is to do there is walk around and browse pointless shops. So we went to a friend's house instead. Typical guy's night out at his house. Music all loud, parents not home, that peculiar "scent" in the air, a guy passed out on the couch. I saw some of my friends I hadn't seen in a while. "heeey mae you're alive!" Uh yeah. "damn haven't seen you around since you got with that one guy a few years back" Yeah I know. Sorry. "oh so you're Jason's lady now though right?" Huh? No.
So anyway skipping ahead... 12am rolled around and I wanted to go home. I was feeling weird being the only female in the room. I was also getting tired of answering the hundreds of questions this one guy was asking me about one of my girl-friends. He has a school boy crush on her which is cute, but c'mon now he was starting to get stalkerish. I remembered that I forgot one of my rings at Jason's house so I blurted out "hey Jason let's go back to your place now". Everyone got quiet, looked at Jason and went "ooOOoOOoooohH back to YOUR place huh?" Nooo I meant I forgot something there and I want to pick it up geez guys. "oOoOoooOOOooHhH so what you forget mae? an article of clothing?" I rolled my eyes. No Brian, I left one of my rings there now will you get your mind out of the gutter? "*ahem* sorry mae." Jason had an obnoxious smirk on his face but when he saw that I was irritated he quickly got up and we went home. "Sorry about those guys. You know how they are." Yeah I know. It's cool they were just drunken morons anyway. So anyway I got my ring back, and he took me home. He walked me to my door, I said happy birthday and gave him a hug [no I didn't kiss him] and that was it. See, I was a good girl.
Ack.. Typing that whole thing out has worn me out. I'm gonna get some shut eye. G'night again.
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