current time is 9:43:50 PM
*sigh* Good evening all. It's 9:24 pm. I just got home from my friend's cotillion. Some drama happened [so what else is new huh?] so I went home to avoid ruining her night. I don't really feel like getting into it. I just don't have the desire to relive my fucked up night. Shit when am I gonna get a break from all this childish drama nonsense? From the looks of things I don't think it will be for a while.
On a lighter note, I received a letter from a web friend of mine [Hi JOSH!] in the mail. No not email, US mail! How sweet huh? He sent me a promo CD too. Reading his letter made my night a little better. In normal circumstances it would have made my night a LOT better, but considering how shitty it already is, I don't think that will happen. But that was definitely a good try!
I started to work on a new layout. That didn't work out too well. So then I started to work on the Evolution website. I started getting a headache so I stopped. I haven't maintained an actual website for so long. I'm losing my layout lunatic touch. I used to be able to crank out layouts on the daily but now I can't think of a new if my freakin life depended on it! Ack.
My ex paged me about ten million times today telling me how much he misses me and how sad he is and what not. Everytime he does that to me I feel so fucked up. I guess now he knows how I felt all those other times he hurt me. I really shouldn't feel bad at all. He does in fact deserve to feel shitty. After all I'M the one who was always feeling shitty for the past four years. He wanted to take a break. He wanted space. I warned him that if we take this so-called break, that I'm not going to come back to him. He didn't believe me, and now look what happened. I hope he learns his lesson.
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current time is 1:00:01 PM
Ok I'm ready to take my designing skills [or lack thereof] to the next level. I'm tired of making suck ass graphics with photoshop alone. Now I want to make 3D suck ass graphics using other apps. Haha. Well, you have to admit, most of the really nicely designed layouts out there are created using other apps rather than adobe alone which is what I do. When I get home I'm gonna download flash and hopefully it will be done by the time practice is over. Yeah! Mae's gonna kick ass once again! It's about damn time. Oh and if anyone knows where I can get some 3D apps please e-mail me!!
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current time is 8:56:28 AM
I was at the donut shop getting my usual stuff for the company. The girl kept fucking up my order so I was getting pissed off. When she finally got my order right I put the boxes in my car and drove off to work. I drove along an abandoned country road. There was a faint layer of snow on the ground. I came to a T intersection and there was a man who appeared to be dead lying on the ground. I screamed and started crying like a little bitch when all of a sudden the man got up. He got on a horse and started chasing my car! I tried flooring it but for some reason my car was going only about 25 mph. The dead guy caught up to me but then I ran him over and tried to turn around and go back the other way. He got up and started chasing me again. He caught up to me and by that time I had pissed in my pants cuz I was so goddamn scared. I guess he was gonna kill me or something so I closed my eyes, held my breath... and then my alarm clock started to go off. Dude I was scared shitless in the dream. I was even a little freaked out when I woke up.
Haha aaanyways. I know that you will ready many blogs today talking about the MTV VMAs so I will spare you another one. All I have to say about that is.. WTF is Britney thinking?!?
HBO is showing reruns of OZ's 3rd season I think it was. Cool!! I wish they'd show the first season though. I wasn't an OZ watcher at the time so I missed out on the beginning. I wanna see that actor Leon. Ooh he looks pretty good. Actually a few of those inmates look pretty good. I wouldn't mind visiting. HAHAH! Listen to me! What a sicko.
Well I'm glad it's Friday. Even though I won't be able to relax much this weekend I still look forward to not having to wake up at 6 am. I put in my vacation request and I should be getting an answer today or Monday. See, with one of the gals quitting I don't think it's likely that I'll be able to take a day off until we replace her. Damnit! >=| We're already understaffed as it is. Blah. Anyone need a job? Send me your resume and we'll talk. =) Haha just kidding. Ok my wrists are starting to cramp up. Bye.
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current time is 4:54:12 PM
One of my favorite co-workers is quitting after four years of working here. =( I feel sad. I'm really gonna miss her! I guess she was offerred a better position somewhere else... and I can't blame her. *sigh* Things are gonna be different here without her. We'll miss you Jamie!!!
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current time is 11:48:58 AM
I'm sooo not in a good mood. Everything has been fucking going wrong for me this whole damn morning. I'm trying to print ONE freakin' ONE PAGE document that I need ASAP but the fucking training department is printing out ten million goddamn instruction manuals so my printing job has to wait until theirs is finished. Just my luck. Oh yeah and this morning the accounting department came running to me for help because their printer is out of toner. I asked when it started to say "Low Toner" and they said LAST WEEK. HELLO?! WHY DIDN'T YOU FUCKING TELL ME LAST WEEK THAT WE NEEDED A NEW CARTRIDGE?! I had to put in a rush order for some more toner which is hella expensive. SHIT MY FUCKING PAPER HASN'T PRINTED YET.
All this stress isn't healthy for a young gal like me. It's a good thing I have at least something someone that makes me happy =) *sigh* Yep. He makes me very happy indeed ;)
YAY my stuff printed!
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current time is 8:59:32 AM
Holy shit my legs are sore. I could barely drive to work this morning. Ack! And I have practice again tonight goddamnit. Sherie if you're reading this why the hell didn't you have your practices LAST FREAKIN MONTH?! Geez. I'm just messing with you girl HAPPY 18th!
Anyways. I saw another thinks-he's-so-damn-cool racer on the road today. He pulled up next to me at a stoplight trying to look all badass and turned his music all the way up. Umm hello I could barely freakin hear my own damn music over his. So the light turned green and off he went with his loud ass exhaust that sounded like a large angry bee flying down the street. His taillights were these ugly ass euro style ones. I see those damn taillights so much they might as well come stock on a honda. Thank god they're not though. Ew they especially look horrible on Accords [which is what he was driving].
I'm taking my vacation soon. =D Oh that reminds me I need to submit my request for time off. I hope it gets approved for the days I want. I have to look at my schedule to make sure there aren't any important board meetings or events that might be affected if I'm not here. It sucks being in my position sometimes because no one else here does the same work as I do, so if I were gone, nothing would get done.
I desperately need to buy a prepaid phone card. My mom is going to have a fucking field day with me when she sees the phone bill. Well hopefully she won't be too mad since I'm gonna pay for it anyway. Then again, it's my mom. Ack.
It's freakin' raining!!! NOOOOO!! Well here in Del Mar it's not raining, just a little gloomy. But my co-worker said that down south it's pouring and thunderring and shit. I don't have a freakin umbrella. Oh well I guess I'm staying in the office for lunch again. Maybe I'll ask Mike to buy me lunch again ;) Ok that's enough bloggin' for now. Bye!
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current time is 9:19:57 AM
Blah. Relationships are such drama. My ex and I have been seperated for almost a month now and he still thinks that we're going out or something. He's giving me these guilt trips and I can't help but feel so heartless. I keep reminding him that HE'S the one who wanted space and HE'S the one who broke it off with me. He says "Well I didn't think I'd lose you" or some shit like that. Why doesn't he just say what he means and mean what he says?!? I didn't get much sleep the night before so I was soooo tired and I wanted to get off the phone already and he freakin' wouldn't let me. Ack! After this whole situation with him is through I am NOT going to get myself into another relationship for a while. I get enough stress from my parents and I sure as hell don't need more from a guy. Ugh!
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current time is 9:41:58 PM
I just got home from Fashion Valley shopping center. My brother got his ears pierced at Claire's Boutique. Geez even I don't wear earrings. Damn my brother's fifteen years old now. I remember when he was still 5 years old. He was sooo freakin' cute now he's just a pain in the ass. Haha just kidding.
Oh you know what? My bitch and I took a "shower" together this morning. Hahaha ok ok well not really. But last night we agreed that when we take a shower in the morning we'll pretend to be taking a shower together. Pretty slick huh?
Ok I'm gonna call my crush right now. I'll blog more tomorrow. Goodnight!
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current time is 8:21:58 AM
Haha.... this is fucking unbelievable. I hate weekends because my mom is home to bitch and moan as she pleases, so even when I have to go back to work on the weekdays, I feel relieved that I won't have to deal with her. So I was wrong. I just got to work less than 10 minutes ago. Just barely. It's a little early so I was surprised to hear my phone ringing. Guess who it was. Yeah. My mom. Bitching about my bedroom door being locked. You know what she said? "Go home now and unlock your door". Uhhhh no. I am not just about to get up and drive another goddamn round trip in Mira Mesa traffic just for her ass. I already had to take my brother to school which is out of my way. Ugh I even had to fill my tank with cheap ass Ultramar gas cuz that was the only station nearby. I bet I'm really gonna hear it when I get home.
<sarcasm>What a wonderful start to my day.</sarcasm> It's only 8:05 am and I'm already in a crabby mood. You can all thank my mother for that. Go ahead and call her, the number is 747-578-7874. Well obviously that's not my real phone number but if you can figure out my area code you might just figure out that cryptogram. Even if you do figure out the number it's no big deal since it's plastered all over the local filipino newspaper and local filipino restaurants. [My dad's drivers training business ads].. Blah.
I went to sleep pretty late last night again. I woke up at 6:00 am so I got maybe a good 3½ hours of sleep. It's alright though because it was for a good cause. ;) I don't even feel sleepy or anything. I guess I got enough sleep over this three day weekend to last me until at least Wednesday.
I added a new button for TECHNORGANIC. That site is rad. I also get mad hits from that site so go visit her! =D and tell her I sent you. Haha. She even made her own button for my site which looks better than the ones I came up with. Thanks woman! Oh shit I think I figured out how to post my archives. *duh* Ok I'm gonna go post my archives now.
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current time is 12:49:30 PM
Hi. Don't worry, I'm not gonna go off again like I did in the last entry. I'm in a good mood. Yeah I'm thinking the same thing: I wonder how long it's gonna last this time. Well I feel kinda pathetic since a few of you answered my "lonely" thing. Haha, I hope you don't think I'm like a loser with no friends or anything. That's not what I meant by lonely. I feel lonely because I haven't been single for soooo damn long. Now I am. So yeah. =] I'm ok, really. Don't worry about me.
I went shopping again yesterday with my brother. I bought him these shoes for a birthday gift and I bought myself two more pairs of jeans. We also went to see the movie Whipped which is sooo not a kid movie. Yuck. Hahah the whole thing was basically about sex so if you're into that kinda thing, I guess it's watchable. I kinda got irritated by some of the actors though. All in all it was an ok movie.
Afterwards we went to eat dinner at IHOP. Damn that was good. While I was ready to pull out of the parking lot my crush called my cell. Naturally my face lit up and I got all excited digging through my purse for my phone. I hate when people drive while on the phone so I told him I'd call him back when I got home. *sigh* I talked to him for a few minutes and then again at night before I went to sleep. We had plans to kick it today but UGH I have to go somewhere. I feel like such a flake. =\
Aw man. Work tomorrow. Blah. I was just getting into my long weekend. Well at least the rest of the week is only four days long. I'm so tired. I think I'm gonna take my vacation soon. I think I've saved up four days worth of paid time off. Woohoo! Hmm well I'll probably wait until I get my shocks so I can use my days off to install my new suspension.. Yeah! Finally. Ok well I gotta get ready and stuff. Talk to you laters! Bye.
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current time is 1:02:16 PM
FUCK! Can't my mom leave me alone for one fucking day?! Shit I guess not. I'm so fucking tired of this yelling in my ear. Every single fucking day she always has SOMETHING -- ANYTHING to complain and bitch and moan about. Being angry for the rest of your life isn't healthy you know? I don't even know what the hell my brother and I did to her?! It's like she wants to be mad for all eternity or something. She acts as if my brother and I are the worst kids in the world and that she's the most perfect mother there ever was. HAH! Wrong on both counts. You know what else? SHE OPENS MY FUCKING MAIL! Last week I saw my bank statements and credit card bills open lying on the desk. WTF?! That's a fucking federal offense and I can report her nosy ass if I wanted to. She always comes home from work and sits on the couch the rest of the day ordering everyone around as if SHE'S the only one who works 40+ goddamn hours a week. Hell my dad works 10 hours everyday! Even on holidays! All she does is sit on her ass in her cubicle the whole day. She's so fucking helpless. It takes her five million hours just to get up from a chair so whenever she needs something she calls upon her servants to obey. The remote control could be two feet away from her but NOOOO she'll yell [her specialty] for one of us to come out of our rooms and grab it for her. Or she'll just sit there until someone comes out and start her yapping. She even has the NERVE to say that my car is partly hers too! Hello?!?!!?!? Is she paying for ONE CENT OF IT? I DON'T THINK SO!! GOD I AM SO PISSED OFF RIGHT NOW YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW. I just wish you could live here for one day and understand what I have to go through. All the shit I just mentioned isn't even half of all the bs she gives us. Just that grumpy annoyed pissed off look on her face makes me mad. AAAGHH!!!!!!!!!!!!! I need to get out. Bye.
There goes my good mood.
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current time is 11:32:13 AM
Well if you want to know what mood I'm in today, it's definitely a good one! Yay! Haven't had one of these moods in a while. So why the good mood? For the past week I talked to my crush every night right before I went to sleep. We weren't able to do that in a couple days but I got to talk to him last night so I'm in a good mood! Plus he called me just now right before he went to work. *sigh* He's such a sweetie.
I'm going to take my brother to the mall again today. He wants to get his ear pierced for a birthday gift. I need to buy some more clothes too. I wonder what mall I should go to... I've been going to North County Fair lately but I think I'll go to like Fashion or Mission. Ack what a boring subject. Moving on.
My family and I went out to eat at Fuddfuckers *ahem* I mean Fuddruckers for my mum'z birthday. They all had ½ lb. burgers and I had the grilled chicken sandwich. My brother's such a dork. You can decorate your own sandwich and he put all these tomatoes and lettuce on his burger but then we he went to go eat it he took them all out. Ack! Another boring subject! Ok let's try this again.
Doh... I can't think of anything fun to say. Bye.
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